** Fear Fears Me!

I got my results today. Yeah, it's really really bad. I'm not gonna say it loud here as it's not a really pride. Sigh. I could actually saw my mom's disappointed face in front of my teacher. I'm such a bad girl. I regretted on what i did in the past few months. Sigh. I had not been a good student or a good daughter. I let everyone down.

I made a "mid-year resolutions" for myself.

- pass all of the subjects
- be in the top 25 or 30
- make my parents proud!

I hope i could really make it.

Quote for the day: Do not, DO NOT ever feel lazy.

Labels: Me Time

** Sugus.

Tagged by Balqiz.

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
neck and the back of the ears! =p

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?
dizzy and pissed about the flu. =.=

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ?
erm.. corrie!

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
no, by my family and yes by my boyfriend! =p

5. Will you ever donate blood?
yes.

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
nope. all girls. =)

7. Do you want someone to be dead ?
why would i??

8. What does your last text message say ?
in msn??

9. What are you thinking right now ?
what will i going to do when my mom gets my results tomorrow! =(

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
yea!

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
around 9.30

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
some shopping mall in k.l.

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
yes, always on my mind!

14. Who was the last person who text you ?
My beloved!

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz...
1) Balqiz
2) Cath
3) Audrey
4) Amanda Shia
5) Kim Pang
6) Eliza
7) Rowen
8) Ka Ann
9) Elton
10) JaJa

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
cath? oh, with her HAMburger! =p

16. Is no.3 a male or a female?
a male! oops, female..

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good?
rowen and balqiz? i think not. Balqiz has a boy now?!

18. What is no.1 studying about ?
hmph.. let me think.. chemistry, biologi, physics, maths, add. maths, bm, bi, islam, sivik, arts,... i think that's all..

19. When was the last time you chatted with them ?
hours ago, days ago.

20.Is no.4 single ?
neh.. that football freak has a boyfriend.

21. Say something about no.2 .
cath. always laugh, bubbly, chubby, quite short, speaks alot and loves to eat. ^^

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together ?
audrey and eliza???? hmph. it will be funny.

23. Describe no.9 .
elton. funny, master in making new english words, speaks alot and easy to get "Gatsby".

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight ?
eliza and rowen????????? will they fight?? neh!

25. Do you like 8 ?
Ka Ann! of course i like her! she's hilarious!

there. make sure u guys do this tag okay! ^.^

Quote for the day: Stupid is a nonsense.

Labels: taggy..

** Nothing Happened But A Black FINGER

** At The Bottom Of The Ferris Wheel

As i sit in my class, alone, being ignored by my friends, crying alone, i felt like expressing my feelings. So, here i am.

I think i'm really emo now. I can't stand my results. Not at all. I hate my results. I couldn't believe that these are my results. I'm extremely disappointed with it. Sigh. What can I do now? Nothing but to cry?

Seriously, i don't really feel the "me" inside of me. I really cant feel it. I'm not the optimist Joyce or the sensitive Joyce now. I think i'm the emo Joyce. Not like me. This is not me. I know that i hve to pull myself out of this condition. I'm trying really hard! But i cant. What is wrong with me? I'm currently in the i-need-to-hurt-myself mood. Well, of course i wont do it. But, what else can i do????

I need my friends. I need him. But as soon as i start to tell her my feelings, my depressed conditions, I can see that she's telling herself like there she goes again. when on earth will she stop telling me about these??? well, maybe i'm wrong.. but i think i'm 80% correct.

These few weeks, i'm not cheerful or happy but i'm not sad or angry.

I have no direction. I dont really know where i wanted to be. My feelings are all mixed up! hell! how can i get myself out of this damn shit?! Sigh. I'm pointless.

I really want to take a break. Go for a vacation or somewhr else. somewhere i cant see my friends. I really cant stand being ignored by her.

Quote for the day: In the bottom of the ferris wheel is never better than the top of it.

Labels: Me Time

** Puzzles

I am so obsessed with this puzzle now!

It's called the Babylon Tower! I can't find it here.

So, hopefully the swine flu in kl is not serious! I neeeeeeeeeed to go shopping!!

Labels: Shopping Time

** Stupid Pigs

Pigs.
Before today: yeer!! the piglets so damn cute oh!!

Today onwards: Hate pigs!! CUTE!?! HELL NO!! I HATE PIGS NOW!!

ASSHOLE! I really don't understand why the person wants to go to USA when the pig's virus or whatever it is is actually so strong there! Shit! Now my mom cancelled our trip to kl! and what does that means?? NO SHOPPING THIS HOLIDAY! SHIT!!!!

Quote for the day: Pigs are so not cute.

Labels: Shopping Time

** Happy Birthday, RP!!

Well, yes, it's another school blogging.

and..

AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

It's Robert Pattinson's birthday today!! 13th of May!

I would like to thanks his mom for giving birth to this gorgeous actor who made me become a Twilight freak!

Cheers to Robert Pattinson! XOXO!

HAPPY
BIRTHDAY,
ROBERT PATTINSON!

Quote for the day: Robert is really HOT!

Labels: School-Holic

** Rainbow Beauty

** Happy Mama's Day!

Happy Mama's Day!

This year, I did not do something fascinating for my mom. I can't believe my mom is actually celebrating Monther's Day without any present from me! =( I'm such a bad girl.

I'd planned a lot of stuff throughout the week, but, sigh... Stupid exams! Made me forgot about Mother's day.

I was fustrated yesterday, worrying about what to do today!

FINALLY! I came out with an idea of cooking my mom a delicious breakfast! (maybe not that delicious ) so, yeah!

My Plan
5.00 a.m. - Wake up and get myself ready.

5.30 a.m. - Go down, prepare stuff.

5.45 a.m. - COOK!

6.45 a.m. - Finish cooking, set table, go upstairs, wake mom up!

7.00 a.m. - Lead mommy to the dining table and BON APETITE!

So, that's my plan! BUT I woke up late this morning. 8.45 a.m. By that time, my mom was up already! -.-

Quickly, i think of PLAN B!

Plan B

Ask my brother politely to bring me to Annie's Cooking Studio to grab some baking stuff! I'm going to bake my mom a cake! cakes baked by me better than the cakes in the shop for my mom ma. =p YES! another plan!

Me : Goh, can u bring me to Annie's for awhile, please??? *blink blink*
Him : No.
Me : HAR?! why not?! it's mother's day! i wanted to bake mommy a cake! pleaseeeee?????
Him : No.

Obviously, you know the result. -.-

I was out of mood! WTF?! Maybe it's the kismet which doesn't want me to have something for my mom. =.=

I went for piano lesson and tuition, went home, saw my mom cooking and taa-daa!!

I grab the flat thingy from my mom and continue her cooking. She was confused but she let me did whatever i want with the food! YES! So finally the kismet isn't playing a fool with me! Ha!

I did whatever it is to look like a chef! -.- Idiot me. Some basil leaves here, thyme leaves there and i ended up cooking only one dish. The prawn! I have no idea at naming it.

Luckily it tastes great! Ha!

Happy Mama's Day!

Just in case, this picture is my mom during her birthday on January. Not mother's day. ^^

Quote for the day: Last minute plannings are 90% disaster!

Labels: Special Occasion

** Youtube Search

About two months ago, i found out that there are these two ladies. Recording themselves, singing in the toilet. I was shocked to listen to their voice.

They're Rin On The Rox. Erin and Roxanne. Erin's a philipino and Roxanne's half philipino and half german.

All of you there, YOU MUST HEAR THEM SING!

This is one of their videos. I love this alot.

Halo - Beyonce

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DeXgQko708I&feature=related

After 6 months of recording themselves and upload it in Youtube, they're actually being invited to the famous Ellen Show. AND! They got two tickets free to the Grammy award.

Labels: In LOVE

** Freeing to be a Bird

Two more days, three more papers to get rid of school papers!

Quote for the day: Gambateh!

Labels: School-Holic

** My Heart Serenades.

Title: Some Say Love

Labels: Me Time