** It's Depressing.

It's Monday today. Everything started fine today. I went to school, had fun with my friends. It became a ferris wheel when recess came. Everything turned upside down.

All of a sudden, I am very moody, very sad, very depressed and very tired. I'm tired of hiding. I'm tired of missing. I'm tired of being happy on the outside but totally different on the inside. I am very tired.

Have you ever tried being so depressed but you have to act like nothing happened with your life in order to hide from everyone? Sigh. 我真的是好累。只感觉好令人不开心。

It's torturing. 4 times a month. How can I live with that. Sigh.

Quote for the day: Try not to hide.

** rachel berry.

A blog is suppose to be a place where you can express your heart. Say out everything to the world. Recently, I found myself typing everything and then delete everything. And, I found myself avoiding blogging nowadays. There are too much things that i could not tell. I am not actually blogging now. I'm making myself miserable.

I have too much to say. But too little to be allowed to tell.

What can I do?

** A.L.O.N.E

How can I be in this awful condition? This is the first time I feel so Alone. So lonely. So cry-ish. I feel like an original crying baby now. Damn. It's been the whole day. I kept telling myself that it will be okay. Everything will be okay in the afternoon or evening or even at night. But what did I get? Disappointment. A hurtful heart. Tears. Sorrow. Loneliness. I hate this feeling. Seriously, I hate this feeling. How can people be so selfish sometimes? How can I be in this situation? Aren't I the happy one? Where is my happiness? Where is it? How can I find it back? How can I fill my heart with happiness again? Questions and questions and questions in the back of my brain. Hiding layers and layers under my heart. I feel like a lost girl who fall into a dark pit, waiting for an impossible rescue.

This is suffering. This leaves me in total sorrow and pain.

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