Have you ever been in a situation before when you don't know how to say no? I've always encounter suck situation. Heck, it's like these type of situations is my twin. It just won't leave me. To be honest, I am someone who can hardly say no, especially to my friends and my family. If I wanna be positive about it (most of the time), it's my strength but it is slowly becoming my weakness. Friends always come to me and borrow this and that and this and that. Some of them even know that I won't like it but yet they will still do it.
YOU KNOW I WON'T LIKE IT BUT YET YOU STILL COME TO ME AND BORROW IT FROM ME. DOES THAT MAKE YOU A BETTER FRIEND????????? YOU KNOW HOW IT WILL AFFECT ME AND YOU KNOW THAT I AM A PERSON WHO CAN HARDLY SAY NO AND YET, YOU STILL COME AND ASK WITH A SMILE ON YOUR FACE????
Seriously, I CANNOT DEAL WITH THIS.
I always help you guys to reason with my own self. It,s okay, she needs to use it. It's okay, it's only for awhile. It's okay this, it's okay that. How many times do I have to deal with this?
At some point (like now), I feel like I'm being taken granted for. I'm so pissed at you guys for always making it hard for me. I'm pissed at myself for not able to say NO to you guys.
You guys are my closest friends here. It will be ridiculous if you said that you don't know about me facing problems in saying NO. Why do you guys still wanna make it hard for me?
Okay. Even if I don't mind and let you borrow my car. Can you at least return it in a good condition or maybe with the tank at least fueled? Maybe I don't need you to fuel up the whole tank but at least one bar up? Sigh.
It hurts when you guys keep doing this to me. Because you guys are killing me inside. Do you know the feeling where you wanted to say no so much but whatever that comes out from your mouth is a yes? Literally, I'M DYING INSIDE.
If it's an emergency, I will always let you borrow my car and I can even be your driver. I will personally open the car door if you request for it. I don't mind. It's an emergency and you need that. That's what friends are for right?
You might say, why do you let us borrow if you don't want to? Well, if you really say this to me, I'm totally speechless. Say whatever you want thn.
Once and for all, all I'm asking is please, my dear friends, do not make it hard for me. Once is nothing but if it's so frequent, I can't stand it.
Friday, July 10, 2015.
