*coughs* *blows the dust away*
Dear Kylie, I blew the dusts away ady. Haha!
At last, tomorrow's the day where I'm going home. I seriously can't wait. I'm now in the dorm. Roommate, Lim Ting Len went back to Sibu at one something. Leaving me here ALONE! The whole block is so quiet now that most of them went back to their hometown. I can't, can't, CAN'T wait to go back tomorrow.
Anyway, Kylie was just reminding me to post something on my blog. So weird when I think back I'm the one who's always reminding her to update her blog. LOL. This morning, woke up at 6.45, went to class at 7.05 and class ended at 8.45. Since class ended, I was here, watching Gossip Girl, Water On Elephants and Merlin. One word, five letters. BORING!
And guess what. Kylie just told me that Amanda Pang Tsu Teng went to watch Nicole David's match. FRONT ROW SEAT. WTFH?!!? Kylie and I are so jealous right now! ;( I still remember how sot is Kylie when it comes to squash. There's once, she went to CIMB bank with me and there's a cardboard Nicole David stood in front of the door and kylie kept telling me to visit Nicole David. Funny girl. Seriously missing her silliness now. Sigh. I wonder how is she doing in NZ now.
Till then, will update again tomorrow.
Quote for the day: Be smart in making decisions.
Friday, August 26, 2011.
Something somehow draws me to blogging. There are really a mixture of feelings in my head. I'm listening to broken-hearted girl by Beyonce and suddenly it hits me.
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you its pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day
Some may say that hate is love. The more you hate, the more you love. However, this theory does not apply to me. The more I hate, the more I suffer. Hatred fills my heart, my blog's name. I never wonder why this name comes to my mind first when deciding a name for this blog. I realized that I can hate someone easily and I can get fussy and angry easily. Though I'm a grumpy person, I can get upset easily too.
There are some people who just can't get what's on my mind and what's going round my head. They will just keep upsetting me continuously. Why do they want to treat me like this? I don't think I portrait myself as a weak person in people's eyes. But why do I always got treated like this? As if I'm a fool. A fool to myself, a fool to the others and a fool to the world.
Have you ever wonder how long will you be able to hate a person? Especially the person you love. Friends, family, boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands, wives even a stranger. How long can you hate a person? One day or one week or one year? It's so tiring to hate a person. I'm bored of hating but I can't seem to find a way to forgive and forget. I'm learning and I hope in this process of learning, I won't get anyone to be hated by me.
It's really hard to be in this position when I'm all stressed-out with assignments, friends and myself. 19 more days and I'll be back to boring, old Sandakan. I can't wait to go back. I miss the walking-slowly people, I miss my mom, I miss my dad, I miss my brother, I miss my friends, I miss my car, I miss my room, I miss home. I'm very willing to take up this challenge of living in a different environment but now, I can't wait to take a little break from this life of mine. Everything here is just too hectic, too much and too stressed.
Quote for the day: A little break won't hurt.
Sunday, August 7, 2011.
Till then, will update again tomorrow.