** The Memory Remains

I remember when you first came home 11 years ago, i was so excited that i even brought you into the shower room when i had shower, thinking that i want to be with you every second. When I came home from school, you would be wagging your tail so hard that I ran towards you, picked you up but sometimes I would accidentaly drop you cz you kept moving. (or maybe I didn't know how to hug a dog -.-)

In 2003, we moved to our new home. You have your little house at the back and you didn't see me as often as before anymore as I got older and I got busier that sometimes I negelcted you. Everytime when I let you out of your little space, you would run around, happily and it would be so hard to catch you since you really ran really fast although you have short legs. :') Oh, not forgotten about the preys you caught too. Lizards, mice, cockroaches, tiny insects and once, a snake. You are mighty, you are lovely, you are loyal and you are definitely a good companion.

Whenever I was sad, I would go to the back of the house where your's and Bobby's little house is. I would sit there and cry and both of you too would lie on the floor, as if you guys were trying to comfort me. Whenever I brought you out of your little house, you would come close to me and sit beside me. Always, as if you were waiting for me to pat your head like I always did.

Last Thursday was the day I knew about your health problem. It was a terrible feeling, knowing that you're really ill but I wasn't with you. I was so afraid that you will leave before I had the chance to see you. Luckily and thank God, you made it until I came back. When I first saw you in 2 months time, my heart was already breaking, seeing you so ill that you could only lie down and you breathed so hard. But still, you were happy to see me. No matter how pain you were, you still wanted to come closer to me and lie down beside me. You're an angel, Mimi.

Yesterday when the lady took you in to prep you for surgery, I was so afraid that I won't be able to see you wagging your tail anymore but thank God again, you were wagging your tail when you saw me after the surgery. The vet said that it's kidney cancer stage four and that it spreaded to your stomach and half of your kidney is ruined already. There nothing left to do but to let you rest in peace. It was a hard time, seeing you close your eyes slowly and seeing you not breathing for the first time of my life. I miss you already. Bobby misses you too. I can see the sorrow in his eyes but don't worry. We'll be there for him too. So that he doesn't feel alone. Finally it's over. You're not in pain anymore and that is what I want for you. I'm sure you're happy up there where all the pain and sorrow are gone. Enjoy yourself, Mimi and we will always have you in our hearts.

Rest in peace, Mimi.