**

Now Playing - 从开始到现在 by 张信哲

I was on facebook and suddenly what I saw wasn't something i wish to see and also something i've been avoiding. His name. Seeing it makes me feel really emotional. I feel stupid for feeling like this but what do you expect right? It's a three and almost four years relationship. You don't expect me to forget just like that and you don't expect me to let go just like that. As what people always say, wounds heal but scars stay forever, you can only cover the scars temporarily. Yes, the scar is deep on me and that is why it still affects me now. After all, I thought he was the one but it turns out that I was wrong. I am never the one to him. I should listen to what my parents said from the beginning. This is a scar that I gave to myself. None to be blame apart from myself. Replacing you seems like impossible but I will try my best to do it, to save myself from this dark hole.

Oh well, enough with the emotional posts, I'm going to sit for my first semester examination in two weeks time. Music for this semester is a little bit tough. Malaysia's Music and the Western Music. Seriously, they're like history. Just that everything is about music. Seriously gotta study hard. Getting a high pointer is happy but maintaining it is like hell man. I'm really worried. Everything seem to be harder and tougher. I know, i know. Stuff gets harder as you go. What can I do now besides studying hard right? Sigh.

The other I went to the Sarawak's Culture Village and Damai Beach. At last! I saw a beach here in Kuching. I thought that Kuching has no beach but when i reached the Damai Beach, I was like in heaven. The only thing is that we did not plan to go to the beach that day. Therefore, we did not prepare any clothes for us to change. Which means, we were playing really carefully so that we don't soak ourselves with sea water. Bummer. I will absolutely be going there again and again and again and with extra clothes. I PROMISE!

Quote for the day: Wounds heal but scars stay forever.