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Next week will be exam week and I can't stop thinking about it. Seriously, sometimes I just wanted to break down and cry and yell. Not only because of studying but everything. Weather, unfinished hours of lectures, friends, revision. I AM SERIOUSLY GOING TO BE CRAZY! My revision isn't done yet. I need to study. I NEED TO STUDY! Everytime I started to study, there will be things stopping me from doing it and I'll get tired by the end of the day.

I need to study early in the morning without any interruption. I need to study in the afternoon in a room that is quiet and no sunlight. I need to study at night without any noise so that I can really focus. Not that I'm complaining but I just need to study. I can't afford to fail my exam. I can't afford to go home without anything. I'm really worried now. How am I going to study if I always have to go to classes in the morning and when I come back, hoping to study, there'll be sunlight coming directly into my room and this hotspot is becoming more and more famous at night? Please God, help me.

Sometimes I think to myself whether it's my fault for being too tolerating. I just wanted peace but sometimes all I get is scars to myself. How am I going to protect myself? Gosh, this is so hard. I hate this. I hate the sunlight, the noise, the classes. I know, I'm such an ungrateful bitch but it's only because I'm at my breaking point right now. I'm stressed out and angry and emotional and feeling so shitty.

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