** Cry Baby

It's been a long day today..
I didn't sms him for a day ady..
we still have 6 days to go through..
hmph..
look at the bright side,
i went for pizza today.
good for me. =p
eating is the only option for me to be happy. =p
although today is quite a hard day for me..


dear..
i really had a hard day today..
i cried 3 times today..
u know what??
i received a letter from my ahyi..
i am so happy..
and i cried.. =.=
tears of joy, i might add.. hehe..
this morning, i went to breakfast in mile 4 with my mom, my brother and my cute cousin..
and, hun..
guess what..
i quarrel with my brother again..
and i cried in the public..
how shameful.. @.@
my cute cousin was like..
(huh???? what happen????)
but..
hmph..
he hurt my heart..
now my eyes are pain ady..
haha..
thanks to the tears? @.@



To the older brothers and sisters in the house,
do you guys actually bully your younger ones??
or.. do you guys actually love them alot..
hmph..
i guess i own a bully-type brother..
why is he like that?
im a little bit tired of it already..
my mom told me that when i was born,
my brother used to love me alot..
in cantonese, sek dou ngo loong.. @.@
at first, i do not remember anything about he loving me alot..
but when i look at the pictures he took with me,
i believed it..
and i try to like him.. and not hating him..
whatever he wants, i try to do it for him..
but why does he want to treat me like that??
i don't understand..
what did i do wrong??
hmph..
you guys, don't bully ur younger ones anymore.. (if you are doing it)
you know?
it hurts.
not on the outside..
but on the inside..
i always ask my mom..
ma, why my friends get loving siblings and i got the bully-type sibling..
she did not answer me back..
i hope he will change..
i try not to hate him anymore..
but he keep on doing it again and again and again..
when will e stop?
will it ends??
i don't know..
i hope it will end soon..............


Quote for the day: Crying is tiring.

** Birthday Catherina!

November is coming to an end.
Holidays are still here.
Friends are travelling.
So is my dear.
Hmph..
I really miss him.
Hope to see him soon!
i mean.. SOON!!!!!!!


Christmas is a month away.
i wonder what will happen this christmas. =p
i loooooooove christmas!
wakakaka..
i get to decorate the whole house.
i get to plan surprises for my family. =p
and i get to get PRESENTS frm my parents!!!!!!
i LOVE PRESENTS!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!! =p


It's 25th today.
and..
we have another NOVEMBER GIRL (a.k.a. turqoise girl) =p !!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CATH

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** Boring Holz

** Baby Phat

holiday has already started..
not much to do at home.
just sit around, internet, slp, watch, tuitin.
borng..
anyway,
i found some Baby Phat products which amused me. =p
i fall in love with it.
hehe..
too bad there isn't any baby phat in Malaysia..
i think?
have a look..
most of them are shoes. =p
shoelista~~~ =p

** Disappointed

have you ever think of my feelings?
have you ever think of what i want?
have you ever think of what am i thinking?
scoldings are not solving problems.
i really don't feel like i belong to this place.


i've never heard other scolding them stupid or useless.
if you feel that i made you lost your face, why do you want me??
why dont you put me into the orphanage?????
i do not want this kind of place..
i did try my best!
i really did!
you never notice it!
what you did is
you came back, scolded me and asked me to do something.
do not say that it's dating that makes this thing happened.
why dont you ask yourself is this my problem or YOURS.
do you think that i am happy with it also???
DO YOU THINK THAT I DO NOT CARE ABOUT IT????
i am also a human being.
i have feeling..
i need love also.
i need caring also.
did you give me all of those??
do you think that you have already gave me all of those??
i hate this place.
i do not want to be here.
i hate it.
you said that you are very disappointed in me.
in the same way, me too.


Quote for the day: Hatred.

** Moody Day, Aiks..

wht the hell has gone wrong in me..
sigh..
anyway, two days before today was his birthday.
i bought him something and..
i was glad that he loves it.
actually,
i couldn't think of something special for him,
so i bought him an iPod shuffle.
as i do not have enough $$ to buy the nano.. =.=
but he loves it.
so, phew~
lucky me.


tomorrow will be the kids' concert.
i wonder how will it be?
throughout the rehearsals,
they were quite ok at first
but the drama is like..
no one except the actors know what are they trying to say....
but, i will still wish them luck.


Quote for the day: An optimist person can be in bad mood too.