PMR finally gone..
i'm free now!!
hehe..
hmph..
he'll be leaving soon..
things do pass fast..
faster than you ever thought..
hun,
i still remember when i first started to notice you..
it was in school, thanks to cath! (
thanks b*tch!)
i saw u the 1st time, den the 2nd, den the 3rd one..
i think the fourth one is in the airport..
when i reached the airport,
something's telling me to look around and search for u
it's weird though.. cz.. i dun really knw u.. and why do i have to search for u?but i did..
i saw u..
and i felt abit blush..
we checked in, u went into the boarding gate 1st
when i enter the gate, another thing came and told me to search for u again..
tht time, im thinking tht i might be going to fall in love on
and..
to my surprise, whn we get back, i did..
i tot i was going to be sad or something..
cz..
tht time..
the only thing i was thinking is tht..
if he doesnt love me, den how?
how can i get rid of this feeling?
i did nt care but to continue..
during the day we get back to school,
i met u once againjoycehiew
it was outside benard's room..
whn we both are doing the same thing
sending the letter to him..
tht was the 1st day u smiled to me..
i was really happy..
and cath keep making me shy..
by asking weird questions frm u
surprisingly, after 2,3 or 4 days, u find me..
i was really surprise and excited..
on the 18 u asked if i could be ur girl..
i was too shocked of wht u've said..
i do not knw wht to do until the next day..
and we finally started together..
and.. tht day when my family went to ur hse for the opening,
i do have a kind of vry weird feeling
the feeling tht makes me wan to faint
my face was really hot..
and i knw i was blushing..
i was shy..
although we had started together,
but..
i was still worried about the love frm u to me..
i was scared of bieng hurt..
until tht day whn the guy keep calling me his darling or something liddat..
you showed
u told me tht..
u hate ppl calling me like this..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:19:55 PM): my ex'es dont say tht..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:20:06 PM): they would rather say.. forget about it those..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:20:15 PM): and not want to fight them..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:20:32 PM): frm tht day onwards, i started to love u deeply..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:20:53 PM): at 1stjoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:21:08 PM): i tot tht i wont be able to be vf u after the 5th months..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:21:14 PM): but.. we made it..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:21:29 PM): i was really surprise..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:21:38 PM): but i am really happy vf it..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:21:40 PM): tht dayjoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:21:54 PM): whn u told me tht ur dad is going to send u to kljoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:22:01 PM): my heart broke..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:22:22 PM): tht day, actually i was extrememly having a mood of fun..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:22:27 PM): i plyed all day..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:22:36 PM): untill the hour u send tht one msg to me..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:22:48 PM): my whole side of fun had gone..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:22:57 PM): i started to cryjoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:23:00 PM): i cant stop and..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:23:16 PM): i dont really feel like saying, eating or doing something else..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:23:33 PM): memories of the good ones and bad ones of us came by in my brain..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:23:37 PM): i was really hurt..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:24:18 PM): i just feel like running into ur arms and hug u tightly and nvr let u go..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:24:32 PM): i really dont want to be apart vf u..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:24:48 PM): cz u are important for me..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:24:59 PM): but after 2 days, joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:25:06 PM): i started to think tht..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:25:24 PM): no matter wht time is it, sooner or later u will have to leave for ur studies..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:25:43 PM): i shouldnt be so selfish frm nt letting u to go on ur futher studies..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:25:58 PM): i decided to hold back my tears and rather be happy..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:26:05 PM): it is really suffering..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:26:20 PM): whn i wanted to cry but i dont allow my tears to roll down..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:26:24 PM): it it really suffering..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:26:36 PM): sometimes, i even cry without letting u knwjoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:26:52 PM): i confess tht i even pretended to be happy..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:27:03 PM): i am sorry for nt telling the truth tht time..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:27:16 PM): i really want u to leave happilyjoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:27:25 PM): without any worries bout me..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:27:40 PM): i dont want u to worry me more thn ur studies..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:27:55 PM): i am ok now.. dont worry..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:02 PM): but.. tht day..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:16 PM): whn i suddenly think of my birthday next year,joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:22 PM): tears came out again..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:31 PM): tht one, i really cant control..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:43 PM): maybe bcz of.. im talking to u tht time..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:47 PM): i heard ur voice joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:55 PM): and ur voice made me missed ujoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:29:02 PM): hun..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:29:17 PM): gurl will wait hun to came back..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:29:23 PM): gurl will definitely wait..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:29:32 PM): hun must remember our promises..
lazy to get rid of those words..so.. sry..Quote for the day: Missing someone is suffering.... Friday, October 17, 2008.
