** Birthday Of My Baby Grace!!!!

** The Most Important Persons In My Life

lately, i did something that makes them unhappy.
i began to think about my wrong-did.
i feel that i am a bad girl.
i feel that i am a bad daughter.
and i feel that i am like a disobedient daughter.
i told myself.
why do i wanted to do this?
sometimes, i hurt their feelings just because of my selfish feelings..
i am sorry for what i'd done.
sorry.

they made me happy.
they made me sad.
they made me feel that i'm the luckiest girl in this entire world.
they gave me light in my life.
i love them very much.

(unknown name),
u might tought that i dont really care u.
i feel that i did too..
i wanted to care u more.
but everytime i saw u, i do not feel like talking to u.
in my heart, i miss u.
i do miss u.
and i love u.
u raised me up without any complaints.
u raised me up without having the feeling of u-are-such-a-burden-to-me.
i might be a little rebellious sometimes.
but all i wanted to say is i love u.
u are important to me.
although i can't see u everyday,
but u will always be in my heart.

(unknown name),
knowing that he is not always with us,
i should have care u more.
i did.
i really did.
but i think it's not enough.
sometimes, when i had a bad mood,
i'll become really fustrated.
and everyone who talked to me will be my victim.
but,
i am sorry that u were one before.
sorry.
i will change.
i know that everything u did is for our good.
but we did not appreciate it.
i promise u and him that i will change.
i wanted to care u more.
and i love u too.


to everyone that is reading my blog,
we are born to make mistake.
the important part is we have to learn from our mistake.
wake up and treat them(if u know who i'm talking bout) nicely.

Quote for the day: Appreciate what u have now.

** 2nd day After PMR

** I Am Free Now!

PMR finally gone..
i'm free now!!
hehe..

hmph..
he'll be leaving soon..
things do pass fast..
faster than you ever thought..


hun,
i still remember when i first started to notice you..
it was in school, thanks to cath! (thanks b*tch!)
i saw u the 1st time, den the 2nd, den the 3rd one..
i think the fourth one is in the airport..
when i reached the airport,
something's telling me to look around and search for u
it's weird though.. cz.. i dun really knw u.. and why do i have to search for u?but i did..
i saw u..
and i felt abit blush..
we checked in, u went into the boarding gate 1st
when i enter the gate, another thing came and told me to search for u again..
tht time, im thinking tht i might be going to fall in love on
and..
to my surprise, whn we get back, i did..
i tot i was going to be sad or something..
cz..
tht time..
the only thing i was thinking is tht..
if he doesnt love me, den how?
how can i get rid of this feeling?
i did nt care but to continue..
during the day we get back to school,
i met u once againjoycehiew
it was outside benard's room..
whn we both are doing the same thing
sending the letter to him..
tht was the 1st day u smiled to me..
i was really happy..
and cath keep making me shy..
by asking weird questions frm u
surprisingly, after 2,3 or 4 days, u find me..
i was really surprise and excited..
on the 18 u asked if i could be ur girl..
i was too shocked of wht u've said..
i do not knw wht to do until the next day..
and we finally started together..
and.. tht day when my family went to ur hse for the opening,
i do have a kind of vry weird feeling
the feeling tht makes me wan to faint
my face was really hot..
and i knw i was blushing..
i was shy..
although we had started together,
but..
i was still worried about the love frm u to me..
i was scared of bieng hurt..
until tht day whn the guy keep calling me his darling or something liddat..
you showed
u told me tht..
u hate ppl calling me like this..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:19:55 PM): my ex'es dont say tht..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:20:06 PM): they would rather say.. forget about it those..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:20:15 PM): and not want to fight them..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:20:32 PM): frm tht day onwards, i started to love u deeply..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:20:53 PM): at 1stjoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:21:08 PM): i tot tht i wont be able to be vf u after the 5th months..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:21:14 PM): but.. we made it..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:21:29 PM): i was really surprise..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:21:38 PM): but i am really happy vf it..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:21:40 PM): tht dayjoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:21:54 PM): whn u told me tht ur dad is going to send u to kljoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:22:01 PM): my heart broke..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:22:22 PM): tht day, actually i was extrememly having a mood of fun..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:22:27 PM): i plyed all day..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:22:36 PM): untill the hour u send tht one msg to me..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:22:48 PM): my whole side of fun had gone..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:22:57 PM): i started to cryjoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:23:00 PM): i cant stop and..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:23:16 PM): i dont really feel like saying, eating or doing something else..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:23:33 PM): memories of the good ones and bad ones of us came by in my brain..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:23:37 PM): i was really hurt..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:24:18 PM): i just feel like running into ur arms and hug u tightly and nvr let u go..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:24:32 PM): i really dont want to be apart vf u..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:24:48 PM): cz u are important for me..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:24:59 PM): but after 2 days, joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:25:06 PM): i started to think tht..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:25:24 PM): no matter wht time is it, sooner or later u will have to leave for ur studies..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:25:43 PM): i shouldnt be so selfish frm nt letting u to go on ur futher studies..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:25:58 PM): i decided to hold back my tears and rather be happy..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:26:05 PM): it is really suffering..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:26:20 PM): whn i wanted to cry but i dont allow my tears to roll down..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:26:24 PM): it it really suffering..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:26:36 PM): sometimes, i even cry without letting u knwjoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:26:52 PM): i confess tht i even pretended to be happy..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:27:03 PM): i am sorry for nt telling the truth tht time..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:27:16 PM): i really want u to leave happilyjoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:27:25 PM): without any worries bout me..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:27:40 PM): i dont want u to worry me more thn ur studies..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:27:55 PM): i am ok now.. dont worry..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:02 PM): but.. tht day..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:16 PM): whn i suddenly think of my birthday next year,joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:22 PM): tears came out again..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:31 PM): tht one, i really cant control..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:43 PM): maybe bcz of.. im talking to u tht time..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:47 PM): i heard ur voice joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:28:55 PM): and ur voice made me missed ujoycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:29:02 PM): hun..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:29:17 PM): gurl will wait hun to came back..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:29:23 PM): gurl will definitely wait..joycehiew_jr (10/17/2007 8:29:32 PM): hun must remember our promises..


lazy to get rid of those words..
so.. sry..


Quote for the day: Missing someone is suffering....