Hatred Fills My Heart

2012

2012-01-02T12:30:00.000-08:00

To be honest, 2011 was a turning point in my life. I'm done with high school, I got into Form 6 and dropped out after 2 weeks after I got accepted to the teachers' training college, I moved to another state myself, I made new friends, I had really devastated memories, I met some jerks and I had to separate from my best friends.

In the beginning of 2011, I didn't really have a direction in my life. I was happy-go-lucky Joyce and I always fooling around and playing around with Kylie when most of our friends are already starting college and universities and A-levels.

The peak of 2011 will be bonding with Kylie and my family and having really good friends in my uni. The pit of 2011 will be parting with some people in my life and being fooled like a dummy.

I promised myself that 2012 will be a great year for me and I hope it'll really come true.

These are some of the pictures which capture my best time of 2011.

Making crispies with Kylie.

See how happy were we? :')

Crispie time with Kylie.

Went out with my 2 best girls.

Vacation with parents in Osaka for Christmas!

This is uncle explaining the lines to daddy.

And this is daddy and I, trying to figure out the lines.

You can tell that I'm in heaven!

Countdown with the Friends

This is one picture that I found funny. So, we were in Osaka and I was looking at the beautiful lights and when I looked up, there's this signboard saying "DALLOYAU"! In case you're thinking, "what's wrong with this girl? It's only a signboard. You never see a signboard in your life?" Well, DALLOYAU sounds like 'Dai Lo Yau' which in cantonese means big ass. That's why I find it funny. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Quote for the day: Stick to your heart.

Osaka Says MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2011-12-25T06:37:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas everyone! I've been here for 3 days and the weather is awesome! Totally in love with the winter. They have really great food here. Going to Universal Studio tomorrow. :) Will update more! ♥

This is mom, excited to see brother through Skype. :)

Quote for the day: Christmas is about sharing and loving.

Time of Happiness

2011-12-20T20:36:00.000-08:00

I'm leaving tomorrow guys! Will be away with my parents for 5 days! I'm really looking forward to it.

I can't believe how fast time has passed. In the beginning of this year, I was just here, in Sandakan, doing whatever it was with Kylie. Both of us were so bored that we acted like tourists and went to those place of interest in Sandakan. Lol. Crocodile Farm, Agnes Keith House, Sepilok, you name it! We were really like lost chicks going to every direction we can go on road.

Then, it was around May or early June, I entered Form 6 and Kylie and I spent less time together. :( Well, I was really hoping that I can get out of school soon, so that I can go meet her. When I knew that I was accepted into the teachers' training college via a text, I was so happy that I let go of the steering wheel (yes, I was driving) and literally shouted and Kylie was in shock and she HAD TO hold the steering wheel for me. HAHA! That was really fun, Kylie. We were planning to go to Golf Club for squash but we I changed the plan and instead, we went to New City for a little celebration. You can't blame me cz Form 6 isn't really my knid of thing and I get to spend more time with Kylie again! We went to New City, also to go online and check whether the message was fake or not. As y'all know, it wasn't fake. I'm in this college for half a year already.I wasn't really happy when I knew tat I was placed in Kuching. I never expected Kuching is the place I continue my studies but now, I'm already used to it and I have friends so, it isn't that bad after all. :)

Seriously, you might not notice how time has passed but when you re-call all the memories that you have had with you friends and family, you'll realize how time flies like a rocket.

A month ago, I was boarding the plane in Kuching, coming back to Sandakan. I was thinking to myself, reminding myself that I have to cherish my moments in Sandakan with all my love ones. I didn't realize how fast it was until today, I read Kylie's blog post and she'll be coming back tomorrow and will reach here on the 23rd and I won't be here by that time. :( It's really sad how hard it is for us to meet up with each other. Everytime when she's coming back, I won't be here and when I'm coming ack, she won't be here. Sigh. I think God is testing our friendship. *saddest face!*

I miss you a lot KYLIE, my baptist buddy, my get-isolated-together-during-tuition-times buddy, my adventure buddy, my bank buddy, my squash buddy, my barbie-lover buddy and my everything buddy! I hope I really can meet you next year Kylie! :( If I'm really going over to your place, don't ever tell me that you're coming back okay!

Anyway, Christmas is almost here y'all! See what I mean now?! Look how fast it is! It's FOUR more days and it'll be
CHRISTMAS! Can't wait to have a white christmas!

Quote of the day: You will never know what God has planned for you in your life.

SKY.fm

2011-12-19T16:55:00.000-08:00

As all of you know, Christmas is almost here! How excited is that people! I was currently obsessed with SKY.fm's Christmas Channel! It's free and there are seriously lots of great Christmas Songs! Bing Crosby, Gene Autry, Mannheim Steamroller and many more! Great singers with great voice singing great songs! Imagine that! Click on the link below to listen to it now! I was listening to this channel last night and the whole night! It was truly a great night since I had great singers singing Christmas Songs into my ears and I was in my comfy bed, snuggling my soft toys. Ahh~

SKY.fm's Christmas Channel

Quote for the day: Having a great Christmas is a blessing.

Munday

2011-12-18T18:55:00.000-08:00

Something wrong with the blog. Just saying.

Futsal.

2011-12-16T04:38:00.000-08:00

Woke up at around 8 and immediately watched Gossip Girl. *winks* Went out to buy some breakfast at 10 and mom asked me to buy for her. So, bought and went to mom's office and had breakfast there. Before that, I texted leng and asked whether he wanted to have breakfast with me and he didn't reply until I was already in mom's office, eating. -.-

Anyway, Leng and Jer took me from mom's office and went to Jer's house. On the television and got nothing to do so, we played Monopoly! Woohoo! In the beginning of the game, I had the least money but in the end, Jer was the one who bankrupted. XD Left Jer's house at around 1.

The only thing that is really unexpected was that I went for futsal for the very first time in my life. -.- Actually Leng MADE me go. I didn't want to go but he insisted that it'll be lots of fun so, I went. The ball was so damn hard. Oh! We saw Victor there along with other juniors who I recognize them but don't know their names? It's a common thing right? Played for an hour only and I was so dizzy. There was only five of us, Arjunan, Leng, Jer, Tristan and I. So, you can imagine how tired it is. -.- For the last half an hour, Tristan invited Effen and another guy to play with them. Jer and I couldn't continue cz I was tired and Jer couldn't use his shoes anymore. XD

Although I don't play futsal, I love spending time with my friends, especially Lengy-Lengy! And Snoopy! XD

Quote for the day: Good friends are jewel.

The Wonderland

2011-12-14T09:09:00.000-08:00

When you see the picture above, I'm sure you're thinking on the same page as me. How on earth can this happened? A photographer, David Gray took these pictures and posted a post.

I was reading the top news in Yahoo! and I found this article about an abandoned theme park in China, Beijing which the developers never completed. When I talk about an amusement park, I'm sure that everyone pictures the same scene as me. Happy people, clowns, kids running around, screams of excitement, cotton candy stalls and ticket booth. Looking at these pictures made me feel scary and there's goosebumps on my skin. Thinking anything could be living there for over a decade ago.

The Wonderland is located 45 minutes outside of Beijing. The construction of Wonderland was halted in 1998 because of the farmers and the local government sparred over the price of the property. To me, it's not really a wise thing to do. You can clearly see that the structure is already there. I mean you can really see the shape of the building and even, you can guess the concept of this whole amusement park. I think both sides should be able to negotiate and be co-operative so that this huge building will not come to a waste.

Although it's an abandoned building, I find it interesting to look at. There's a lot of questions in my mind. What will happen to this place in the future? Will they continue the construction if it is still safe? Are there anyone living there? Will the building collapse? Are there anyTHING living there?

I was still wondering cz they said that this building is located outside of Beijing and you'll be able to see it on the way to the Great Wall Of China. I didn't see any abandoned buildings on the way there? I would LOVE to look at this building in front of me. It's an experience I would love to have and to look at the other abandoned amusement parks such as the Six Flags in New Orleans which is closed because of the Hurricane Katrina, the Takakanonuma Greenland in Japan which is closed because several people died on rides, the Opko Land in South Korea where one little boy died on a ride and since then, the amusement park is closed and abandoned and the Pripyat Amusement Park in Ukraine which is closed before it's opened to the public because of the nuclear disaster where the city was forced to be evacuated.

The farmers starting to grow crops around the Wonderland.

It's like a lost world.

Quote for the day: Regret is always too late.

samtsirhc!

2011-12-13T20:31:00.000-08:00

Hey guys! So today, I went out to have lunch with Leng, Tris, Jer, Manda P and Mandy. Manda S and Zul were supposed to join us for lunch but Manda S couldn't make it but she joined us for Breaking Dawn with Zul! Breaking Dawn was serioiusly awesome! Yes I know. I've watched it before but I still want to watch on that huge screen. *winks*

Anyways, something actually happened before the movie. We actually went to SYC for a drink and guess what. After being a member there for like my whole life, today was the first time I couldn't go in just because of a damn membership card. I didn't have mine with me and neither did Leng. I actually told that stupid guard that I AM a member and gave him my membership number. He made us wait at the entrance and he went in to check. He came out with a file in his hand, pointed at my parents' name and asked is that the one. Of course, I said yes that's my parents. He told me that I wasn't allowed to bring any guests just because I'm frickn 18. WTF?! I was like since when you're only allowed to bring guests only when you're 19?! I swear it was EIGHTEEN! That guard really spoilt my mood. -.-

Got back home after the movie and went to Guardian with mom where I got my hairspray! I don't know if it's good but if it's not good, tell me! It's the L'oreal's Studio Line Fix & Shine. I'm trying it now but I don't think it's that shiny? Oh well, maybe I used the wrong procedure. Really wanted to find a good hairspray!

Look at my christmas tree! AWWW~!
Quote for the day: Don't be stubborn.

The Dawn Is Broken!

2011-12-12T22:25:00.000-08:00

Did I mention that I've watched Breaking Dawn? ;) It was frickin' AWESOME.

Everybody say HELLO KITTY!

2011-12-12T09:20:00.000-08:00

Hey y'all again! Well, since I'm having my holiday season now and literally I have lots of time when I'm not doing my assignment so i'll be blogging everyday till I'm leaving for my vacation with my family! :) I'll be leaving in nine days time! I can't can't can't wait to leave for my vacation! Will be visiting Hello Kitty in person! Woohoo!

Anyway, I was planning to go for squash yesterday but sadly, mom got hungry at the last minute and mom was too afraid for me to drive the manual car. *sad face* This, honeys, is why my squash plan was cancelled. Will be going for badminton this evening with the family! Although it's not squash, the love of my life but I'm spending time with my family so it's a tie right? *winks*

Yesterday, Nisaa texted me and believe me. She sounded REALLY suspicious and mysterious and kinda scary cz I asked her to check out our results for the past exams since she lives really near to our college. In those texts, she was using the i-want-to-tell-you-but-I-don't-know-how kinda mood. She really did scare the hell out of me man. I thought she wanted to tell me that I failed my exam or whatsoever. I immediately called er and she told me that she didn't know how to do the assignment. -.-

Message to Nisaa: Nisaa, jgnla buat mcm tu ngan sya. Sya sik dpt ditakut ba. Aigoo.

So, I'm in my mom's office again. Figured out that the line in the office is much more faster than at home and that is why all my pictures are from the internet, guys! If you see me posting pictures that are actually taken by me, you can find me at home. *winks* I was going through lots of tumblr blogs when I came upon two particular tumblr blog - http://fuckyeahhellokitty.tumblr.com and http://hello-kitty.tumblr.com

Seriously, this two tumblr blogs made my day! Although it's only like 9 a.m. I can't stop myself from uploading the pictures that literally melt my heart and my brain and my whole body!

THEY.ARE.SO.DAMN.CUTE.

SERIOUSLY!

How cute is this!?

Just like me! Got specs! XD

Kitty Witch and Kitty Wizard! Awww....

To die for! THIS.IS.SO.FREAKING.CUTE!

IT'S HELLO KITTY AND IT'S PINK!

How can anyone eat these???

Mom? Can I have this ring? Please? *kitten's watery big round eyes*

So gonna do this to mine!

Awww. Kitty's kind! :')

Make a scary face attempt number 9869037: FAILED

Awwwwwwww

Mom? Can I pleeease have this when we're on our vacation? :)

Doggy likes Hello Kitty too!! XD

How to eat these when it's so cute???

Me! Me! Me want!

Me want these too!!!

This too!!!!!

OMG. Hello Kitty never fails to melt my heart over and over again!

Yes, I'm a Hello Kitty freak. I love her! She's so darn cute and looking at Hello Kitty just makes me feel peaceful and happy and teary. :')

Quote for the day: Keep going on with what you like and what you love.

A December To Remember

2011-12-11T22:00:00.000-08:00

It's 12th of December, which meas in 10 days time, I'll be leaving Sandakan with my parents for vacation! Can't wait for the day to come but after that vacation, I'll have to face the fact that I have one more week to spend time with my love ones here since I'll be going back to Kuching on the 3rd of January. *sad face* I don't wanna leave so soon but what to do right? Sigh.

Anyways, didn't do much these few days. Typically, i did the same thing everyday. And! I super can't wait for CHRISTMAS! Christmas is like my favourite holiday in the whole year along with Chinese New Year of course. ;) Dad's coming back today! Haven't seen him in ages! Mom is really excited for this year's Christmas cz we're gonna have a white christmas this year! Sadly, brother isn't coming with us. He wanted to stay home. *sad*

What should I do for christmas this year?! Anyone???

Quote for the day: Christmas is a season of sharing and giving.

CHRISTmas

2011-12-07T00:41:00.000-08:00

I know, I know KYLIE. I abandoned my blog for almost a month already. So now, i'm updating it. Well, i think it's time to update my blog too. It's been too long since my last post. :)

So, I'm now back in SANDAKAN! My hometown and my paradise. *wide smile!* I came back on the 18th of November which was last 2 or 3 weeks. I've lost track of time and date. LOL! You can't blame me okay. This is home and home is a place where I don't need to worry much. :) It's so good to be back with my mom, my dad, my brother, my dogs and my everything! Well, i didn't really come back on the 18th. I departed Kuching on the 18th and stayed one night in my uncle's house cz it was too late and there wasn't another flight to Sandakan.

Anyway, I'm here but all my best friends aren't. :( My neck is becoming really long because of waiting. Look at the list I've made and you'll understand.

Kylie - 23rd of Dec
Leng - 12th or 13th of Dec
Kelly - 18th of Dec
Drey - 17th of Dec
Grace - Not coming back :(
Cath - Not coming back :(
Jeremy - 1st of Dec (Yep, he's back! XD)

Well, at least this few I had lots of fun with Jeremy, Tris, Manda S and Elton. Don't know why but Jeremy has a really funny sense of humor. It's like he doesn't know that he's funny. Really laugh my ass off! Haha. He's going to sit for the driving law test tomorrow and i pray for you JEREMY!!! XD Went to Abad Baru with Jer and Tris the other day. Last Saturday I think and second round in Jesselton which is Arjunan's favourite. Lol. Last Monday went to Sabah Hotel for lunch with Jer and Tris and Manda S. Laughed so much that I had trouble swallowing the food in my mouth. Haha. The problem is that Jeremy kept telling jokes and saying things that is funny without him noticing it. What the hell Jeremy! XD

Seriously, I can't wait for them to come back. I miss them so much and I hadn't seen them in like forever! Really want to hang out with them as much as possible!

Oh! The other day, the monitor in my class posted a status on our class' wall and he said that our lecturer was disappointed with some of our marks. :( Sigh. I really really hope that I don't fail my exam. This is my first exam in this college and I need to ace! Please pray for me y'all! :(

And! I can't wait for Christmas! I just set up the Christmas Tree at home and decorated the house. Since my parents and I won't e here for Christmas, this year, the decorations are lesser than last year. That's what brother wants. :( Although I'm not gonna be here for Christmas, I still want everyone here to celebrate Christmas in a happy mood. Not a lonely Christmas aight! Rejoice for Jesus, our SAVIOR!

Quote for the day: Rejoice for the Christ!

Questions.

2011-11-13T03:41:00.000-08:00

What did I do to deserve these? Why can't people see my intentions? Why are my intentions always blocked by people? I'm disappointed, hurt, sad, mad and clue-less. Why?

The Tale Of A Boy And A Butterfly

2011-10-10T22:55:00.000-07:00

I just had English Language class and my lecturer told us a very meaningful. Especially for us, future teachers. Here it goes.

Once, there was a little boy who likes spending time in a park. One day, he saw a butterfly, struggling, trying to come out from the cocoon. The little boy was sad that the little butterfly was struggling so he decided to help the baby butterfly. He peeled off the cocoon and freed the baby butterfly. Just released from the cocoon, the baby butterfly had a pair of wet wings. After awhile, the baby butterfly died. The little boy was sad. Why did the baby butterfly? Well, of course he did not know why. He was just a young little boy.

You see, every butterfly has to struggle their way out from the cocoon. Just like human, we can't be spoonfed by other people. We have to overcome challenges ourselves in life. We can't let other people to face those obstacles of life for you. And, we have to know our limits. The others are able to do certain things. So what? It doesn't mean that you have to be able to do those things too. We should always be alert and be aware of our own limits. Pushing ourselves to the fullest is good. But not too much.

Such a valuable story. Gonna tell my students when I'm a student. *winks!*

Quote for the day: Know your limits.

cupcakes and cashmere

2011-10-07T18:41:00.000-07:00

Another blog I found which includes everything i like. So damn happy to find this blog. As you know, my institute, they don't allow entertainment news and fashion. So damned right? I KNOW. This blog, gives me literally everything I need. She has a very good fashion sense. A very good baker which takes wonderful pictures of cuisines. Damn! I LOVE HER BLOG! Best blog ever aside of Karen Cheng's.

THUMBS UP!!

Quote for the day: Live life till the fullest!

Letter!

2011-09-25T17:47:00.000-07:00

Guess what? IGOT THE LETTER FROM KYLIE ANNE HAN KELVIN!!!!!!!!

Yesterday, I was reluctantly walking down the stairs to a very last minute planned rehearsal. I was so mad and furious of the arrangement. I thought I could bath and relax. Suddenly, my course mate told me that there was a rehearsal. Damn.

As I was walking down the stairs, Clarice shouted my name from the 1st floor.

Clarice: Joyce!!! Kamu ada surat!!

Joyce: Surat? Surat apa? *thinking that it was some kind of bank statement or letters from the school*

Clarice: Entah? Kamu turun tengok la!

Joyce: Okok. *suddenly thought of Kylie's unfound letter!* CLARICE! SURAT TU DARI MANA?!?!

Clarice: Entah? Kaylay? New.........

Joyce: NEW ZEALAND!!!!! KYLIE!!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!!!

Clarice: Uinah! Sabar ba!

I literally snatched the letter from her hand and I yelled. Hahahaha! It was from Kylie!! I finally got Kylie's letter! I was so happy that I wasn't even looking at the road when I was going down the stairs and walking to the field. I immediately texted Kylie and told her the good news. She called me and both of us were like AHHHH!!!!! Yea, yea I know. You guys might say that we're crazy but hey, I was waiting like crazy here you know and Kylie was always "Did you receive my letter? Did you receive my letter?"

Dear Kylie,

This post is most of it about you and our craziness! And my update. Just in case. Later you question me again. *winks!*

Kylie sent me this picture when she was waiting for the plane to go to New Zealand. ;(

I took this picture when Kylie went to the toilet. We were watching S.I.T.C.

Kylie, remember how I told you what not to watch? ;)

Kylie's vandalism on my book for Mr Bernard's tuition. ;/

Kylie's phone with some accessories that I drew for it. Haha!

Well, I forgot who took this picture. But this place has a lot of memories.

Uhum..... Kylie? Looking cute eh? Hahahahahaha!

Pictures taken on Grace's 17th Birthday Party in Balin

Mr Bernard's Tuition Class During Form 5

Pictures Taken From

Amanda's 17th Birthday Party In SYC

Silly Snapshots Of Kylie And I

14th January 2011

Recent Pictures

So excited when I saw and bought this! I still remember my mom used to take this away from me everytime Popo bought it for brother and I. Haha! Childhood memories. Sigh.

Silly classmates. All of them like to post so much. Haha!

Pictures Of The Trip To Nisaa's Secondary School

Their music room. So many kind of instrument!! Kylie, I'm sure you won't want to leave this room.

Their school has something like a hall of fame. -.-

Went to Spring after visiting Nisaa's school and went to Padini and tried some crazy sunglasses. Haha!

City Care Charity Drive

Another event that i've been busy of was the City Care Charity Drive. It's like a bazaar except that it's held in a hall only. A lot of stuffs were sold and there's hair-cutting, photoshoot, face painting, household to be sold. It was really tiring. Imagine you have to wake up at 5 in the morning and the event ended at 4 in the afternoon.

I requested a Hello Kitty but the lady gave me a cat. =.=

Goods that i was selling. Coffee beans and healthy tea. 0.o When my roommate and I got these, we were like, seriously? They want us to sell these? As a result, no one buys the coffee beans and only few of the teas are sold. What a shame.

My dirty pink shoes and Lim's super clean white shoes. LOL

Till then.

Quote for the day: True friendships stay alive no matter how far we stay away with each other.

H.O.M.E

2011-09-06T20:51:00.000-07:00

I went back to Sandakan on the 27th of August and came back to Kuching on the 4th of September. Waiting for the day to come was long but when I was in Sandakan, time was flying like a rocket. Sigh. How I wish time can always freeze whenever I wanted to.

I know Kylie is dying to know what did I do in Sandakan as she kept telling me to post about it. Haha. Kylie, I posted loads of photos for you! Wee!!

Painted my nails! Happy!

Rabbit!

Little cousin gave me a Hello Kitty watch. Cute to the max!

My 'Mini Cooper' at the back of 2 'Ninja Turtles'

Cousin's Angry Bird as an exchange for the watch. I knew there's a catch when she said she wanted to give me that watch.

Jungle trekking with the family. Tired to the max!

Hike people!

The scenery is worth it.

Blue nails!

Turqoise nails!

*censored!*

Seafood is always the best!

Leaving Sandakan was hard for me. I miss home and I didn't want to face the stress here. Although my school is considered a "little-stress" school, but I don't really agree with it. Sigh. Oh yea. I met Suzanne on the way to KK. It's been awhile since I last saw her. Feels good to meet a classmate before leaving Sabah.

Quote for the day: Do not embarrass yourself by some foolish thoughts and acts of yours.

Golden Glory

2011-08-26T02:50:00.001-07:00

*coughs* *blows the dust away*

Dear Kylie, I blew the dusts away ady. Haha!

At last, tomorrow's the day where I'm going home. I seriously can't wait. I'm now in the dorm. Roommate, Lim Ting Len went back to Sibu at one something. Leaving me here ALONE! The whole block is so quiet now that most of them went back to their hometown. I can't, can't, CAN'T wait to go back tomorrow.

Anyway, Kylie was just reminding me to post something on my blog. So weird when I think back I'm the one who's always reminding her to update her blog. LOL. This morning, woke up at 6.45, went to class at 7.05 and class ended at 8.45. Since class ended, I was here, watching Gossip Girl, Water On Elephants and Merlin. One word, five letters. BORING!

And guess what. Kylie just told me that Amanda Pang Tsu Teng went to watch Nicole David's match. FRONT ROW SEAT. WTFH?!!? Kylie and I are so jealous right now! ;( I still remember how sot is Kylie when it comes to squash. There's once, she went to CIMB bank with me and there's a cardboard Nicole David stood in front of the door and kylie kept telling me to visit Nicole David. Funny girl. Seriously missing her silliness now. Sigh. I wonder how is she doing in NZ now.

Till then, will update again tomorrow.

Quote for the day: Be smart in making decisions.

broken-hearted girl.

2011-08-07T16:49:00.000-07:00

Something somehow draws me to blogging. There are really a mixture of feelings in my head. I'm listening to broken-hearted girl by Beyonce and suddenly it hits me.

And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you its pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

Some may say that hate is love. The more you hate, the more you love. However, this theory does not apply to me. The more I hate, the more I suffer. Hatred fills my heart, my blog's name. I never wonder why this name comes to my mind first when deciding a name for this blog. I realized that I can hate someone easily and I can get fussy and angry easily. Though I'm a grumpy person, I can get upset easily too.

There are some people who just can't get what's on my mind and what's going round my head. They will just keep upsetting me continuously. Why do they want to treat me like this? I don't think I portrait myself as a weak person in people's eyes. But why do I always got treated like this? As if I'm a fool. A fool to myself, a fool to the others and a fool to the world.

Have you ever wonder how long will you be able to hate a person? Especially the person you love. Friends, family, boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands, wives even a stranger. How long can you hate a person? One day or one week or one year? It's so tiring to hate a person. I'm bored of hating but I can't seem to find a way to forgive and forget. I'm learning and I hope in this process of learning, I won't get anyone to be hated by me.

It's really hard to be in this position when I'm all stressed-out with assignments, friends and myself. 19 more days and I'll be back to boring, old Sandakan. I can't wait to go back. I miss the walking-slowly people, I miss my mom, I miss my dad, I miss my brother, I miss my friends, I miss my car, I miss my room, I miss home. I'm very willing to take up this challenge of living in a different environment but now, I can't wait to take a little break from this life of mine. Everything here is just too hectic, too much and too stressed.

Quote for the day: A little break won't hurt.

chillin.

2011-07-31T04:05:00.000-07:00

It's a Sunday and I'm in the hostel the whole day except for an hour where Syafik brought Wany, his roommate, Brandon and I to SCR for lunch. Nisaa was expected to go with us but unfortunately, due to the minimum space we had, she couldn't join us.

After lunch, I had all the time to myself, where I relaxed and did some movie time alone and slept for two and a half hours until Lim came back. Due to Lim, I talked when I was sleeping. LOL. I never really knew I'll talk when I sleep. It was relaxing but certainly, I wasn't enjoying the heat much. Sigh. Why can't Malaysia has four seasons. Envy with Kylie who's in New Zealand now.

I have to design a logo and the cheerleaders' shirt. Sigh. Without photoshop. Damn.

Not much that I did today. Just, well, you know, chilling.

Quote for the day: Relax your soul to get better ideas.

Dillema

2011-07-29T03:51:00.000-07:00

Why do such things have to come to me always? Can't I easily make a decision? Why do I have to consider so much? Help me. I'm getting weak.

Quote for the day: You have to learn to be wise.

Amy Winehouse.

2011-07-24T01:19:00.001-07:00

a talented and gifted performer.

through her eyes, you can easily see a beautiful woman with a troubled soul.

Amy Winehouse was a gift from God to us.

dead on the 23rd of July.

she'll always be remembered.

rest in peace.

the conclusion.

2011-07-16T16:15:00.000-07:00

I'm here for a month already.

Happy memories keep coming to me.

I'm so glad that I have these monkeys with me.

PPISMPMZ 1611 IS THE BEST!

L.O.V.E.

Quote for the day: God will eventually give you a savior. You have to just believe.

Under The Brightness Of Moon

2011-07-13T06:18:00.000-07:00

Under the light of the moon, we're all having our drama practice. Nice view, nice scene, nice people, nice surrounding. Something's missing right here.

Mom called just now, telling me what they're eating at home and mom sent me a picture, SHOWING me what were they eating just now. Sigh. Mom, you're making me homesick. All of a sudden, I think of home and everything, including friends, my car, my room, my closet (I have a tiny closet here.) and family.

Thought of my crazy cousin who actually cried when I left Sandakan.

I've learnt a lot here. I've learnt how to be independent. I've learnt how to make new friends. I've learnt that true friends stick with you no matter how far are we. I've been really emo yesterday and I didn't even know why. There's always a mixture of feelings in me.

Dear God, please guide me to be a better person and please strengthen me in this new city.

Quote for the day: Stay strong and believe in yourself.

TeeHee!

2011-07-12T03:39:00.000-07:00

4 years ago, I was tagged by my darling, Cath. After four years, which is today, I was reading through Cath's blog from May 2007 and when it reached at the post posted on the 17th of September 2007, I realized that I've been tagged and I haven't do it.

Since I have nothing to do now, I'll do it right now. XD

*INSTRUCTION :Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italicize the statements that you WISH are true.

Leave the fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.
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1) I miss somebody right now.
2) I do not watch tv these days.
3) I wear glasses or contact lenses.
4) I love to play video games.
5) I have tried marijuana.
6) I have been in a threesome.
7) I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
8) I have changed mentally over the last year.
9) I curse.
10) I am totally smart.
11) I've broken someone's bones.
12) I am paranoid sometimes.
13) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
14) I need money right now.
15) I like sushi.
16) I talk kinda and sometimes really fast.
17) I have long hair.
18) I have lost money in Las Vegas.
19) I have at least one sibling.
20) I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
21) I couldn't survive without Caller ID.
22) I like the way I look.
23) I am usually pessimistic.
24) I have a lot of mood swings.
25) I have a hidden talent.
26) I am always hyper.
27) I have a lot of friends.
28) I have pecked someone of the same sex.
29) I enjoy talking on the phone.
30) I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
31) I love to shop.
32) Enjoy window shopping.
33) I would rather shop than eat.
34) I dont hate anyone.
35) I am a pretty good dancer.
36) I am completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
37) I have a cell phone.
38) I believe in God.
39) I am an adrenaline junkie.
40) I watch MTV on a daily basis.
41) I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
42) I have rejected someone before.
43) I want to have children in the future.
44) I have changed a diaper before.
45) I have called the cops on a friend before.
46) I am not allergic to anything.
47) I have a lot to learn.
48) I am shy around members of the opposite sex.
49) I have made a move on a friends, significant other or crush in the past.
50) I have tried alcohol before.
51) I own the South Park movie.
52) I would die for my best friend.
53) I think that people who thinks themself pretty, gorgeous, adorable is such a PoSeR.
54) I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
55) I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
56) Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
57) I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
58) I am happy at this moment!
59) I am obsessed with girls/guys.
60) I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
61) I study for tests most of the time.
62) I am comfortable with who I am right now.
63) I have more than just my ears pierced.
64) I walk barefoot wherever I can.
65) I have jumped off a bridge.
66) I love sea turtles.
67) I think make up and whatSoEver skin care is not a must in a list.
68) Plan on achieving a major goaldream.
69) I am proficient in a musical instrument.
70) I hate office jobs.
71) I dont care about admireres, i am thankful that i have some, and i dont hate them because i dont love my admireres by displaying something not nice about them.

72) I think water rules.
73) I went college out of state or SOON.
74) I like sausages.
75) I love kisses, because im always horny and im always eager to try having sex.
76) I fall for the worst people.
77) I adore bright colours, neon colors!!! (glow in the dark is excluded)
78) I cant live without black eyeliner.
79) I dont know why the hell I just did that stupid thing.
80) I usually like covers better than originals.
81) I can pick up things with my toes.
82) I can whistle.
83) I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
84) I owned a laptop.

85) I am not single, taken

86) I can stick to a diet.
87) I talk in my sleep.
88) I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
89) I have jazz in my blood.
90) Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
91) I wear a toe ring.
92) I can't stand with some kind of people nowadays.
93) I am a caffeine junkie.
94) I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
95) I have been to over 15 meeting.
96) I am going to have a Sweet 16 birthday party.
97) I am an artist.
98) I only clean my room when necessary.
99) I like a person of the same sex.
100) I love being happy.

I Stab.....

1) Cath

2) Kylie

3) Kelly

4) Leng

5) Tristan

Adious!

Quote for the day: Be aware of your surroundings.

...

2011-07-10T17:48:00.000-07:00

I have a choice to make. I know what's right for me. I know that that's something I wanted. However, I keep feeling something weird inside me. Is it because of the memories? Something inside me is pulling back, holding me back from achieving what I wanted.

Dear God, please give me the strength to make the right choice for myself.

Signing out.

Quote for the day: Insomnia drives you nuts.

K.Y.L.I.E

2011-07-09T07:54:00.000-07:00

You made me realized how important family is. You brought me joy although we became really close just after SPM. I can't believe how time flew. I believe in this situation, people will say it's a nick of a time or whatever it is. Honestly, I have doubts before being so close to you. When we started our real friendship, i realized how good of a friend you are to me. No doubts, you are a very good friend.

Kylie, this few months, you've brought me smiles and laughters. I'm really sad that you're leaving tomorrow. To another country which is thousands and thousands of miles away from here, Kuching. Although I've met new friends, I still miss you very much. I miss hanging out with you and having those little adventures with you. Especially when we went to the bank and those tourists' destinations. From the bottom of my heart, I enjoyed it very much.

From the tuition with Ms. Chong, you've been there for me although we weren't really close back then. I miss you very much. I know that although we're far apart from each other, our heart will always say together. I believe that God wants us to be close.

I believe in fate. We've met each other since we were few months old babies. You were my baptism neighbour. We did not contact with each other until primary 1 and when I stopped schooling in St. Mary's Convent, we stopped contacting each other again until we were in the same secondary school. However we weren't that close also until form 4 when we started the tuition in Ms. Chong's.

Kylie, I miss you terribly. I wish we're schooling together but it's a fact that we can't. I believe in the future we'll still be best friends cz I believe in fate. I believe that God has destined you as my best friend. I love you Kylie.

Missing you terribly.

Quote for the day: When it's destined to be yours, you can't avoid it.

HBD!

2011-07-04T08:37:00.001-07:00

Fourth of July! Celebrated my birthday away from my family for the first time. I really wanted to thank my classmates especially those who actually made me a video. I was really touched, guys. Not forgotten, my roommate. She was preparing my present last midnight and according to her, I talked when I was sleeping last night which shocked her. Haha! I was really tired. So, it's okay right? =)

Although I don't feel like it's my birthday today, I'm really glad that I have such wonderful friends. Of course, including my best buds, Grace, Kelly, Kylie, Drey, Cath and Leng. I thought of how you guys surprised me last year by singing the off-tuned birthday song to me, at the back of the double-cab, in front of my house. Seriously guys, really shocked me. Haha! Miss you guys so much man.

Lima is asleep now so i might as well sleep. Signing off.

Lima, Brandon, Bam, Syazni, Basil, Jere, Faris, thanks for everything. You guys made my day.

Quote for the day: Treasure friends.

The longest 3.4

2011-07-02T07:47:00.000-07:00

1 Murid, 1 Sukan, 1 Malaysia. I guess every student and teachers and lecturers started running at 7.45 a.m. today for this event that is such a memorable day to all of us.

Before starting to run, I was so high-spirited. The enthusiasm to start the event is unlimited. But, when i started running, i get tired and more tired. Damn. I guess I really do have a very low stamina.

Anyway, went to Boulevard today with Lim, Nana and Brandon. Nothing much to buy. At least i managed to get myself some formal wears and some Polo-T. Not to mention I had Kenny Rogers for lunch. I can't believe I spent 50++ bucks for pads only. Dang.

Went back to the campus at 5 something and went to church with my roommate. Since it rained heavily this afternoon when we're on our way to the taxi which brought us to the church, our pants became really damped. Considering it's already so cold with the heavy rain, the taxi driver didn't seem to know that both of us were freezing like gila. Such inconsiderate driver. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk. Anyway, that church i went was moderately okay. Not much comment.

That's my day and dang. I really have nothing to say now since I just came back from the church and am really tired now. Signing out.

Quote for the day: Don't judge anyone by it's cover.

Bleu

2011-07-01T02:25:00.000-07:00

It's a Friday today. Seriuosly, I've never been so busy in my life. Practice after practice after practice. My goodness. Luckily it's something I wanted to do. Music and more music. We're going to run for the 1Malaysia thingy tomorrow. Sigh. Have no idea what is this for. Making me tired only. Ish.

Quote for the day: Respect others if you want others to respect you.

Life In IPTAR.

2011-06-27T03:55:00.000-07:00

Yes, I'm currently in IPTAR, short for Institut Perguruan Tun Abdul Razak and yes, Joyce Hiew Ka Yee is going to be a teacher. Surprising eh? Ha! Gotcha. Most of my friends will be, "Huh? you? a teacher?" So, here I am, declaring that I, Joyce Hiew Ka Yee IS going to be a teacher.

The reason why i hadn't been upsating is because I was really busy with packing and stuff. Packing, registering, thinking, searching for stuff and more thinking. I reached here, Kuching on the 19th of June and got myself registered ont he 20th of June. Starting with the hostel and campus life, I was really homesick and I didn't want to be here. Honestly, when my family members are leaving me in the campus, I was a little bit teary and when they left Kuching on the next two days, I actually cried. What a baby. LOL.

Now, it's the second week of campus life and I'm actually starting to feel more relax here and more used to it. I have a roommate. She's from Sibu and it hits me when she told our group about she wanted to be a policewoman. I mean, come on. How many of you ever heard from your friend that they wanna be a police. Let alone female friends. Apparently, I'm the only Chinese girl in my class and everyone there speaks malay. So, fellow friends, don't be surprise if I return to Sandakan with fluent Malay! Ha! (I'm secretly proud of myself!)

Anyway, I'll continue updating my campus life here in my blog. So, you who're interested, stay tune. If you're someone who hated me or someone who hated my blog, get lost dear. =)

Quote for the day: Friends are important in your life.

S.E.C.R.E.T

2011-06-06T01:11:00.000-07:00

Sigh. What should i do when i get scolded later? SIGH. This is such a scary moment. Sigh.

Kylie's gonna leave soon. KYLIE'S GONNA LEAVE SOON! *sad face* I'm so gonna miss her. She's been my twin for half year and sigh. I'M SO GONNA MISS HER! I won't be able to play squash with her, have adventure everyday and go play everyday in a very long time.

Anyway, I'm leaving for Kuching soon too. Everyone's leaving soon. I wonder what will it be to be in a new place and new environment. Hmmm. I wonder. I hope I can really make good friends. Sigh.

Quote of the day: Truth is important.

Sarawak

2011-05-21T00:25:00.000-07:00

The result is out and i'm going to Kuching for further studies soon. Sigh. Now i know what's Kylie feeling. Waiting for the day to come. I'm so gonna miss so many things here.

buzz buzz

2011-05-15T07:01:00.000-07:00

Look at the picture above and it defines me now. *smiles proudly* School starts like a week ago? Sigh. I don't wanna go to school now. I know, i know. I've been complaining or whining about how much i miss school and everything. It's just that things are so different right now. I feel so alone in school right now. It's not the same without all my girls with me. Sigh. It's not that I don't like the boys which are literally my girlfriends too. Since my girls are not here anymore. =.= Or shall I say, I feel so man now. Since i'm always around the boys. Sigh.

School is the same i think. The only thing that has changed is the uniform. Feel so 'wide' (would rather not say the 3-letter-word which is mean to myself.) in this light blue skirt. Trust me, lighter colours will only make you look hmm.. Wider? Lol. Well, at least for people like me. But so what right? If you don't like how i look, don't look at me. =)

Oh! It's a Sunday today and tomorrow I'm having my piano exam. I don't really feel nervous right now. Which i think is a bad sign. Shyt. And i'm having fever right now. Oh, bummers. I'm so gonna pray hard tonight and keep my fingers crossed that I won't flunk my exam. Sigh. But optimistically, I get to skip school tomorrow. =) Which is great. I don't really wanna go to school nowadays. So, yeah. Great day until 2 p.m. which is gonna be my examination time.

I've got so much in my mind right now and all of them are what i miss right now. Since there are so many of them, i might as well make a list. To end this beautiful 300th post of my blog. =) I know it's weird but hey, it's my blog. I like to do whatever and write whatever on it okay. So don't go around bitching about it.

Here comes the list!

Joyce's Official "What I Miss" List

1. Talking crap and going crazy in class.

2. Skipping classes in school with Kelly and Grace.

3. Making crispies with Kylie.

4. Crying with Cath.

5. Bitching with the girls.

6. Go twilight-frenzy with Kelly and Drey.

7. Eating in class with the girls.

8. Studying BK and Bio with Kelly.

9. Studying Sej with kelly and Cath.

10. Sailing with sailing buddies.

11. Some Gold memories in Kelab Khidmat.

12. Believe it or not, Prefects' Camp.

13. Nail-painting time with Kelly.

14. "Shopping" in SDK with Cath and Grace.

15. Taking silly pictures with Kylie, Cath and Grace.

16. Swimming with swimming buddies.

17. Talking to Lengy Lengy.

18. Having tuitions.

Gosh. I think i miss everything. Sigh.

Quote for the day: What's done is done.

Birthdays

2011-04-20T05:35:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE APRIL BABIES!

AMANDA PANG TSU TENG

FONG WEY HENG

BRANDON HIEW

CHEE WEN JIUN

HOWARD KWAN

All The Best Y'all!!

Big Step of Life

2011-04-20T05:23:00.000-07:00

I'll be facing one of the most important phase in my life tomorrow. I really don't know whether I'm ready for it or not. Part of me told me that I am and I'll be fine and part of me told me that I'm not. Gah! Will I be alright tomorrow?! I'm super nervous right now. I need it to be good and I really need this. I may sound desperate but I AM DESPERATE NOW! Dammit.

Anyway, despite the fear of being interviewed by some strangers, I'm glad that I have supports from my family and friends. These supports are all I need right now. Although mama is not here with me now. :c

I'm having my fingers crossed and hoping for the best!

Quote for the day: Always prepare yourself for the worst.

A Little Piece Of Peace.

2011-04-08T04:17:00.000-07:00

Here I am again, after a few weeks of ignoring my blog. Life is boring now. Well, I know, I used to keep complaining and keep saying it will be so good if SPM is over and I don't have to go to school anymore. Well, the fact is no. It is not I expected. Friends left for further studies and everyone is busy with their future life. Just like me. This few months had given me a chance to think of what I want for my future. What I wanna do for my future.

My result of SPM didn't turn out as I expected. It's a good thing for my parents and a bad thing for myself. Well, i might expected to much for myself. Somehow, I'm grateful with my results and i'm happy. I kinda HAVE TO be happy. Or else, Cath will be scolding me for not being grateful with my result. teehee.

Anyway, KELLY WONG YEE LIN is coming back tomorrow! Yay! *claps* Kelly is my go-crazy-with-nails pal! I miss her so so much. I used to have my Cath, Grace, Kelly, Drey, Kylie to help me solve each and every problems of mine. Now, it's me only. =( Oh well, I'm living with it. Sooner or later I'll have to be an independent girl right? It's practice time for me! =)

Quote for the day: A little bit of peace is all you need when you had a hectic day.

the day has come.

2011-03-22T06:05:00.001-07:00

it's time to face reality.

Loads of Time

2011-03-15T04:47:00.000-07:00

It's been 3 months since I last wear my school uniform. Gosh. I've got to say that I really miss school very much. I miss having fun in school, studying with my friends, going crazy with my girlfriends, crying in school toilets and annoying the teachers. Hmph. I personally don't really like going to school so much but I'll have to admit that I really really miss school. All of these, they're like a life routine. When you're young, you hate school. You hate waking up so early, you hate homeworks, you hate attending classes and you hate attending tuition classes too. You just want to graduate from high school a.s.a.p. When you're graduation day is only a month or 2 months away, you wish that time doesn't pass so fast. You know that soon, you'll be apart from your friends, your bestfriends and everything. Soon, the time came and now, we're no longer high school students. High school is already in our history. It has passed. Some has started studying for higher educations. Some are still applying for colleges. Some are relaxing and let fate decide what'll be next for them. From the moment we graduated from high school, we're on our own again. Just like when you started kindergarden. Except that we have to be more responsible and we are to stand on our own.

Whatever happens, I'll always love my girlfriends. Grace, Kelly, Cath, Drey, Deep, Manda, Kylie. ♥

Enough with the emo mind. Some pictures showing what I'd done during this holiday.
Went to squash frequently with Kylie and Manda.
Watch movie and lappie.
My new love! RUMMI!
Painted my nails Blue Pearl from Ianti.....
....... thn to some glittery blue from Elianto.....
...... then to blood red from Elianto......
.......and now some sticker which had been in my nail-polish basket for almost a year. Although I'm not a big fan for stickers on my nails but I actually like this pattern. =.=

WHAT'S NEXT FOR MY NAILS????
Why is it so hard to think? =.=

Quote for the day: A good appearance gives a good first impression.

OMG

2011-03-02T21:08:00.000-08:00

It's March now and i bet all of us, 2010's form 5 students are shivering down to their feet now. The result is going to be in our hands soon. Less than a month! Gosh. I'm so worried now. In fact, I'm worried in this whole holiday! I really really hope that I can ace my SPM. I really don't want to let so many people down in my family. Sigh. I'm scared, terrified, worried, shivering, you name it! Please God, PLEASE let me get some good results. PLEASE!

Quote for the day: Always be ready for the worst thing.

The Fear of A Big Boy!

2011-02-28T23:31:00.000-08:00

I just found out that my dear friend, Jeremy Chiang Chung Bo a.k.a. Snoopy has a fear for tiny weeny praying mantis!! What a surprise! Jeremy was planning to bath at first and then decided to come out of the bathroom when he saw the praying mantis! He's so cute! Ahahaha!!

Boo-yah Jelemi!

Quote for the day: You'll never know until you know.

eye-bulging

2011-02-21T02:44:00.000-08:00

Have you ever encounter with a situation when some people is looking at you from the peak of your head all the way down to your toe nail? I just did!

I went to World Cup the other day, hoping to get some games for my Mac and the ps3. Some students walked out from the cyber place in that shop and kept staring at me. Up and down, up and down. My aunt was so furious that she voiced out, " do you know her? what are you looking at? if you know her, say hi. If you don't know her, get lost." Phew!

Seriously, why do some of the people want to look at other people in such inappropriate way. That is like one of the rudest things to do man. I mean, what's the point of that look anyway? I so wanna slap them in their faces.

Next time when someone look at you with that eyes.................

...............this should stop them!

Quote for the day: Don't be mean!

F.U.S.T.R.A.T.I.O.N

2011-02-11T05:10:00.000-08:00

Oh yea, i forgot one thing.

I still can't find any BABY PHAT in PAVILLION!

Help!

Little Gathering

2011-02-11T03:47:00.000-08:00

It has been almost a month since my aunt came back after four years. Mom and I went to KL the other day just to reunite with aunt. Well, aunt planned to surprise us by hiding in a corner just to shocked us. Unluckily, little Harris spoiled the plan! Oh well, she was fulled with tears when she saw us! That will definitely be one of my highlights in this year!

The second or third day in KL, a little incident happened which shocked all of us to death. We ( Mom, Aunt, Aunt's friends - Geraldine and Nurul and her son ) planned to go out for a breakfast. We went out of the hotel room and into the lift. Little Harris ran into the lift, full with excitement. Just as other kids. He hit the 'G' button and the door closed. Bing! It's the Ground floor. Just as the door was opening, Little Harris' hand got stuck at the door. He screamed and wailed and cried and shouted. We were panicked, pressing the 'close' button and the 'open' button of the lift, pulling his tiny fingers out, shouted for the manager and the lift was crying out loud too! Aunt managed to pull his fingers out of the door and his tiny little fingers became tiny red sausages. Poor Harris. Luckily he did not have bone fractures. My heart went BUMPEDY BOOM! all the time. =.=

After the KL trip, we went back to SDK where Aunt was feeling nervous as she was gonna meet granny for the first time in four years! Well, we were excited as well. We went to Tawau after a few days. We were all, ALL very excited. When we reached granny's house, we all, except for aunt went into the house to greet granny. Then,

Mom: ma, i brought a friend for you to meet. And she brought you a hamper!

Granny: who oh?

(Aunt using the hamper to cover herself slowly walks into the living room and yes, she's tiny.)

Aunt: mama!!

The rest of the moment, you can imagine. =) Tears of joy, hugs and kisses. Oh, it was a wonderful moment! Granny was so extremely happy when she saw aunt came home. At last! It's a true family reunion!

It has been almost a month since I last saw little Harris. Gosh, that cute little boy. I miss him so much. Althought he's quite bossy sometimes. =) I love him so much!

Little Harris and I in the hotel during the KL trip.

Such a clever poser!

Whole family reunion in Tawau.

CNY in SDK.

Steamboat that was held tonight!

Happy ending. =)

Quote for the day: In the end of the day, you turn to your family.

Commit Suicide

2011-02-09T03:06:00.000-08:00

Few months ago, there was a guy who commited suicide because of a girl. Because of LOVE. Now, another person did the same thing. It's just that this time, it was a girl.

Seriously, what's with human nowadays? I really don't get it. Some of you might think that by dying, we will be able to prove how much we love our love ones. These people who think such things are selfish, stupid, dumb and useless. I mean, aren't your family your love ones? Aren't your friends your love ones too? What the heck were you thinking when you were about to end your life? Seriously! Yeah, you might be free from all problems but hello? Did you think about your family? Your friends? How sad will they be when they find out that you're gone!

God brought us to this world to love each other. To help each other. To do good deeds. He did not bring us here to terminate our life. =.= Sigh.

Although it was not my matter but sigh. Man, i hope i can slap them so that they'll wake up before ending their life. There's nothing i can really do now except to pray for them. Anyway, deepest condolences to the families.

Quote for the day: Whoever who doesn't appreciate their life is a total dummy.

CNY 2011

2011-02-05T08:19:00.000-08:00

Well, everyone knows that it's a new year and the past year, i'm pretty sure, that some of us might had some tough time. I did. I don't really know whether my problems are all solved or not but anyway, i really hope to have everything settled and solved and done. I mean like completely DONE.

Anyway, went to Drey's house and well, it was nice to catch up with some friends. Especially now that we aren't studying together anymore. Sigh. How I miss high school life.

I think I better stop typing now so that this won't turns into an 'emo' post.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE! IT'S A BUNNY YEAR THIS YEAR! MAY ALL OF YOU HAVE LEAPING-S IN EVERYTHING!

Quote for the day: Friends show their love in times of trouble.

Old Time Sake

2011-01-29T00:03:00.000-08:00

Current playlist.

Never Be Replaced - First Lady

Walk Away - Paula DeAnda

Unbelievable - Craig David

Love Me Or Hate Me - Lady Sovereign

Quote for the day: The day will only be a bad day if you want it to be.

Outing With Girlfriends

2011-01-28T05:30:00.000-08:00

Blood Red

It was a fun day today. A nice one. Nothing extreme. Although they keep complaining my driving skills. =.= Especially Cath who panicked everytime i stop at the back of a car. Anyway, It was great. Just an outing with my 2 best friends. I miss them so much!

I woke up at 8 and called Cath and Grace. I'm their alarm clock. =.= Surprisingly, Cath was up already. Miracle! Anyway, fetched Cath and then Grace. She was like a Japanese girl already. =.= Dye your hair blonde Grace! Anyway, I made them to wear heels. I know I know. It was raining the whole day but hey! Never try never know right? At least none of us fall down. *smiles widely to CATH* We went breakfast in Indah and then to Elianto where i get my blood red nail colour! Cath got the nude and turqoise one and Grace got the blood red, dark gold and peach. After Elianto, we went to VDynamic. Cath wanted to get the catalogue for the fireworks thing. So expensive! Anyway, we went back to my crib and painted our nails. So now, mine is blood red, Grace's are peach and Cath's is nude. But Cath's is one hand only. =.=

Quote for the day: A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.

H.E.L.P

2011-01-27T04:36:00.000-08:00

I'm now officially addicted to twitter and tumblr and it's making me isolate my blog. Oh gawd. Help!

Quote for the day: Everything's gonna be okay in the end. Only believe it.

Under The Rain

2011-01-24T18:58:00.000-08:00

Just sent Jeremy to the aiport. Oh, I miss him already! He did not cry but i bet he'll cry later! *evil smile* Snoopy! I'm so so so looking forward to November when he'll come back again! Make sure you don't be so mysterious again Jeremy!

Bye Bye Jeremy. Bye Bye Snoopy.

Quote for the day: It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them.

i miss y'all already.

2011-01-24T03:46:00.000-08:00

Jeremy's supposed to go back to Australia today. We, Soong, Kylie, Lip, PSF and I went to the airport. On the way going to the airport with Kylie, while driving, I thought of a lot of happy memories we all had while we were in school. There were times when we fought with each others and there were times when we laughed together. These memories will always be in my heart. I will always remember them. Sigh. I never knew time passes this fast. From primary 1, Grace had been my buddy. St. Mary's Convent then to St. Monica in primary 2, where we met Jeremy, Arjunan, Madeleine, Ivan, Kelvin, Thomas, Patrick and many more. Thinking back, there were lots of tears when we were in primary 6. Where we had to be apart from some of us.

Going to Sung Siew was a whole new experience. It was where we became teenagers. Grace and I met Cath there. I still remember how Cath left a deep impression in my heart. That time, we were in the same class, 1B. A teacher, who I forgotten who was it asked us to introduced ourselves. So when it was Cath's turn, which was the back of the class, Zi Heng, sitting next to her introduced himself first. Believe me, that time, his voice sounded like a girl's voice. Then, it was Cath introducing herself and i was shocked cz her voice at that time was rough! I thought Zi Heng's voice was hers! ahaha. Well, memories. Oh! When we were in form 4 and Jeremy was leaving. Sigh. That day was FULL with tears. We miss you so much, Jeremy! He can be annoying some times but he is a really good friend.

Sigh. I'm gonna miss so many things here. I'm gonna miss having fun times with Grace, Cath, Kylie, Kelly, Audrey, Deep, and all of you! I'm gonna miss going back with Leng and Rocky everyday. I'm gonna miss those puppy loves. I'm gonna miss those dramas. I'm gonna miss going crazy with my besties. I'm gonna miss crying when getting bad results which kinda freaky. I'm gonna miss being shouted by the teachers. I'm gonna miss so many things! Oh! Kelab Khidmat! I'm gonna miss that place too. Sigh.

Grace, Cath and I spending our day together.

Grace having her hair blown.

Grace: I put drugs in your drink!

Cath and I stuffing everything into the mouths eventhough we're so full. =.=

Another fun day in my house.

I love 5d (with Jeremy included).

Quote for the day: Be prepare for the worst thing in your life as you never know when it will hit you.

Loves.

2011-01-11T04:47:00.000-08:00

In the past few days, I had so much fun with Jer, Leng, Kylie, Soong, PSF, Cath and alot more! Sigh. How I miss those days when we studied together.

Yesterday Jer, Leng, Kylie, Lip, PSF, Tristan and I went to school to return files and visit. Gosh. There're so much memories there! We met a bunch of teachers and of course! Mr G! Just as before, he advised and advised and advised. Never change one. Haha. We literally went to every single part of the school.

We left school at around 12.30 p.m. and went to New Century in Grandview for lunch. Tristan kept promoting his salad prawn. =.= Yes Tristan, we know that it is nice. Lol. After lunch, we planned to hang out in my house. Something happened and the plan was cancelled. Sigh. Anyway, we went to Golf Club for a swim. It was so fun!!! Although I keep drinking the dirty pool water. =.= Thanks to Jeremy and Soong who kept grabbing the ball away from me.

Overall, we had lotsa fun. It's so sad to know that soon we'll be on our own way. =(

Quote for the day: Friends are important!

and they live happily ever after.

2010-12-30T05:08:00.000-08:00

do you believe in happily ever after? sigh.

Quote for the day: Love Story.

Reebok PT-20 INT ‘Plush Kitty’

2010-12-29T04:18:00.000-08:00

Look what i've found from the net!!!! I want a pair of these!! Hello Kitty! I adore Hello Kitty to death! OMG!

Okok. Back to my blog.

Went to Eastern Plaza and Kubota Plaza today. Not much to shop. Here is like another Sandakan. Nothing to buy. No McD. No nice stuff. Sigh. The most I see was the tudungs. =.=

Btw, I have LIME GREEN NAILS now! Bought them from Elianto! At least there're Elianto and Body Shop here. Hush Puppies too! Too bad, I'm broke! Such a failure.

Oh, I miss my friends already! How can I survive next year without them?! Oh gawd. Grace, Cath, Audrey, Kylie, Kelly, everyone! Remember to find me when you guys are back! Sigh. At least Amanda will be here like me too. Haha. Only a few of us will stuck here in boring Sandakan. =.=

Quote for the day: Learn how to love yourself before loving anyone else.

Tawau Day 1

2010-12-27T01:37:00.000-08:00

Went to the hospital today with grandma and Vun. I'm telling you guys that don't ever have a kidney failure. Haemodialysis is really torturing. When I see my grandma sitting there for four hours, it was like hell. Tubes all over the place and that huge machine that "washes" the blood. Urgh.

At about 12, Vun drove me around, showing me Tawau. I mean like where to go shopping. I realized that like Sandakan, Tawau has nothing to shop. =.= Sigh. I'm going to bored to death here! I went out alone at 2 something. And I got lost! Woohoo! The best feeling ever. Haha. I did find my way back. So, it was kinda fun, driving around a town, not knowing where I'm going. The feeling was like going straight and just turn when there is a way. Feel so free. I just wanted to keep on going and going and going.

This whole getting lost thingy has given me an opinion of my life now. I realized that we really can't avoid problems. We have to face them. Most of us, Me, Kylie, Kelly, Audrey,......... We are sad to leave high school. But it's life. We have to go on. Yes, we might not know what're waiting for us in front. But we have to keep going. Obstacles, mistakes and failures. All of these make us feel terrify and sad and even oh-i'm-going-to-die. But without these, we won't be successful right? So, yeah. Life experience!

Quote for the day: Just keep going. Just keep going. Just keep going, going, going....

2010-12-26T04:17:00.000-08:00

I can't believe that i ignored my blog for quite some time. =.= The past few weeks were a roller-coaster ride for me. From extreme happy to extreme sad and now extreme happy again. Lol.

Woke up at 7 this morning and got ready for the day. Awesome day! I had fun this morning. So much fun. Audrey gave me souvieniers! Love pressies! Hehe. I saw a black machine! WooHOo! =.=

Afternoon went to New City with Kelly and Audrey. And now, I'm in Tawau. I miss you! Oooops.

Quote for the day: Psiu!

Siaran Tergendala

2010-11-10T15:09:00.000-08:00

This blog will be updated oftenly after 16th of December. Harap maklum. *beeping sound*

Quote for the day: Friends are important.

Eye Bugging Day.

2010-10-01T01:59:00.000-07:00

It was a nice morning today. Studied BK with Kelly. Grace and Audrey were both absent. Discussed more about the class t-shirt and Kylie wanted to go to the toilet. So, we went!

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Shit. I saw a piece of shit walking towards me. Damn. Walked straight and another piece of shit again. Someone please, get rid of all the shits in school. They are totally eye-bugging and annoying and irritating and seeing them will totally turn your luck. From good to bad. From bad to worse. From worse to shitty!

Well, I'm not gonna let some shits make my day. So i had fun with my buddies and studied more. And, dang! Another piece of shit. =.= *Totally big SWEAT!* They really did turn my luck today. From bad to worse! Dammit.

Quote for the day: Shit stinks.

Another Birthday.

2010-09-25T02:17:00.000-07:00

To my lovely cousin, CHUNG YI LING, HAPPY BIRTHDAY and HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN!!

Quote for the day: Appreciate family.

Krazay Week

2010-09-13T17:10:00.000-07:00

Hey guys. How's everyone's holiday going? Well, Corrie, Amanda, Philip, Kevin and I went to compete in the KK Youth Music Festival. Oh my, where are all the cute ang mo's????? Despite that, everything was pretty cool. I mean we get to see super talented kids playing on the piano like mini-mozart and mini-beethovan or even mini-chopin! They seriously intimidated me. Oh dear. How shameful I am now.

First day we reached, went to the lodge to put down our bags to lighten our hands. BUT! Pretty pretty Amanda brought her laptop and was carrying it to everywhere. =.= Buddy, you are too skinny to have to exercise the WHOLE DAY! Did a half day shopping and went back to the lodge. Again. Didn't have much sleep due to the incredible temperature of the air-conditioner. Damn. 1 hour sleep. That was what Corrie and I had. Dang!

2nd day a.k.a. COMPETITION DAY! NERVOUS, NERVOUS AND NERVOUS! I slept on the way to Nexus and regretted! Couldn't see what was the environment. Sigh. Reached and walked around. Room to room. We were very free and were all in the nothing-to-do-mood. Soon, it was Sinn's time and we rushed into the room and listen. Fly Me To The Moon. Not a bad song. In fact, it's brilliant! And he won. Congrats Sinn! Amanda, Mandy, Philip, Corrie, Jiun and I went to the beach. Haha. We got wet and salty feet! Well, at least we had fun right. Haha. 3 pm was our time to compete and my hands were actually shaking that time. Went on stage and got everything ready and go! The 1st song was quite succesful but the 2nd song was quite OMG. =.=

But! we got 3RD! Well, at least we got a prize. =) One Borneo at night, watched movie, some drama and got back to the lodge. Overall : FUN DAY! =)

Oh dear.. How I wish that we are all still in KK, having fun everyday, shop everyday and play everyday!!

Quote for the day: Music is life.

Trust. It's all i need.

2010-08-25T06:18:00.000-07:00

i admit that i had the worst result in this entire world. But i am improving myself. Why can't anyone believe that I AM IMPROVING? Is it had to believe? I am currently grounding myself. I can go out and party if i want to. But i did not. Why? Because of all of you. But why can't all of you support me and not yelling at me all the time? Why? Seriously, i really could use some of ur supports in my studies. So, please. Stop nagging me. I am doing my job as a daughter and a student. I know what i am doing. Stop it. Please. It hurts. Alot.

An Elastic Band.

2010-08-14T05:47:00.000-07:00

I have been neglecting my blog for a couple weeks. Or months. Everytime when I wanted to post something on my blog, there are boundaries. Well, I can honestly say that I'm no good for boundaries. I hate boundaries. Boundaries make me sick. Very sick!

I hope that the pressure I have now acts as a motivator more than a mental-jail. I hope I don't fall apart before SPM. Tensions and Pressure are my new enemy right now. Damn.

Quote for the day: Forcing yourselves to do something you do not like will turns out to be a disaster.

Deep Sorrow.

2010-08-06T05:08:00.000-07:00

Emo-licious.

2010-07-17T18:00:00.000-07:00

What is wrong with everyone nowadays? I've noticed that a lot of people are using their blogs as a place to mourn and to be emo. They can be extreme in the broad day light and super emo when they're in front of the computer, posting something new in their blogs. Oh dear.

To be honest, I do mourn in my blog. When something terrible happened. I mean, a blog is like a diary except the fact that it is not a private diary. People know more about you when they're reading your blog. (Only if you're writing from your heart.)

Report card day was a week over. Mine was terrible. 100+ more days to go then I'll be sitting for SPM. I hate exams. Dammit. Really don't know how can Arjunan or Leng or the other studying-maniac study all the time.

Quote for the day: Enjoy life.

Head In The Game

2010-07-11T00:03:00.001-07:00

I seriously have to get my head into the game. Tired of the false accusations towards the innocence.

Quote for the day: Do not accuse.

Happy Bithday, Joyce!!! =)

2010-07-04T02:05:00.000-07:00

It's 4th of July and it is my birthday! yes!! It is my day and Kylie said I'm the queen of the day! XD

Schedule of The Day

8.30 a.m. - Woke up and checked my inbox and facebook. Both flooded with birthday wishes.

9.00 a.m. - Brushed my teeth went downstairs and no one was there. =(

9.10 a.m. - Dad and Mom came back, went out to Golf Club to take daddy's car.

9.20 a.m. - Daddy drive to kk. =(

9.30 a.m. - Had breakfast with mommy.

10.15 a.m. - Went to Hong Kong Bank with mommy.

11.15 a.m. - Went home.

(At this time, I was feeling sooooooo bored.)

1.00 p.m. - Went for Drum lesson.

1.30 p.m. - Done with Drum lesson.

1.35 p.m. :-

Mommy: Quick! Call pizza hut and order your favourite pizza! Large one!
Me : Huh??? So big for what??
Mommy: Nevermind la! Can eat as dinner also ma.

[Calling Pizza Hut......]

Pizza person: Hello. Thanks for calling Pizza Hut. Do you want to listen to our promotion or order your pizza?
Me : Order please. I want the prawn fish king thingy pizza. Large one.
Pizza person: The....... king?
Me: Yea!! That one.
Pizza person : Anymore side orders?
Me : No thanks.
Pizza person : Okay, I'll repeat your order. One larger ...... king pizza?
Me : Yea.
Pizza person : The total will be RM 42.30 and will be delivered after 30 minutes.
Me : Okay.
Pizza person : Thank you for calling Pizza Hut. Bye Bye.

[Look at mom.]

Me : Mom.. Seriously, who's coming?
Mom : Your relatives.
Me : Relatives? I thought we are supposed to meet them tonight?
Mom : Other relatives. (Smiling smiling.)

[ Someone called mom.. ]

Mom : Reach home ady? Go round round first la. Kakak not at home.
Me : ........................................

[ Look at mom suspiciously.. ]

Me : Mom! Who the hell is coming????????????
Mom : You'll know later. =)
Me : fustrated....

[ At home..... ]

I was lying on the couch and mom asked me not to lie there and asked me to go upstairs. I knew something was up for me so i purposely stay at the couch. Suddenly, mom asked me to go to the door and wait for my "relatives". =.=

After 2 or 3 minutes, I heard a bunch of ladies singing a off-tuned-birthday song! I saw Andy driving a Triton and O.O!!!! AUDREY, GRACE, KELLY, DEEPIKA, CORRIE, AMANDA AND JOSEANNE AT THE BACK OF THE CAR off-pitching the birthday song!!!

This is a huge surprise for me! I thought it will be an extremely boring birthday for me this year and oh gosh. I don't know what to say but thank you. You guys did a very good job in hiding it man. Haha.

Thank you, you girls, for surprising me like that. I bet you girls are disappointed to see me not crying. =) Actually I wanted to cry but YAY! I managed to hold them back! Haha.

Thank you mom and dad for the wonderful drum kit! I love you so much!

Thank you everyone of you who flooded my inbox AND my Facebook Wall. I love you guys so much!

BUT!!!!

I don't thank you girls for giving me a puked-chocolate-cake facial! I do not like it. ;/

Quote for the day: Appreciate your friends and prepare towels for your birthday!

HUGE Slurpries!!!!

2010-07-03T01:43:00.000-07:00

Daddy got me a new drum kit for my birthday!!! How cool is that!! Haha!!

Too bad he won't be here to celebrate with me. =(

The Fun of B*tching!

2010-07-01T03:31:00.000-07:00

My birthday is 3 days from now. Why do I have a feeling that it won't be a happy birthday for me this year? Sigh.

Anyway, I'm not going to be sitting here, making myself even more sad. I was late for school this morning. Wasn't aware of the time as the breakfast was delicious. Haha. Brought my lappie to school today. Audrey scanned through the news feeds in Facebook and gosh! We found some interesting pictures of the FIFA! Haha!!

Kokum time was quite funny. Haha! Kelly, Grace and I kept bitching about Chong YT! Haha. Seriously man. I do not really know that girl but gosh! She's a real bitch. I mean, come on man. It's not that she's a pretty girl or even a cute one. She really loves to talk bad about someone man. Especially her ex's girlfriends. She was always the one who wanted to break up first but now, she keep talking bad about her ex's girlfriend. What to do? She's the one who wants to break the bond and I think she is jealous that her ex gets a better girlfriend than her. Haha! Get lost, B*TCH! XD

Hey you, if you are reading my blog, are you happy huh? Yes, I'm bitching about you. So what? I don't give a damn of your stupid feelings. I want you to feel how is it to be bitched. What do you think you are huh? I think you did study History right? You are the 2nd Teluk Bohai man. If you don't know what does that means, ask my friends. Haha! Thank you, bitch! For making me so happy today while bitching about you! XD Thank you so damn much! Haha!

Quote for the day: Stand for yourself.

It's Depressing.

2010-06-28T06:29:00.000-07:00

It's Monday today. Everything started fine today. I went to school, had fun with my friends. It became a ferris wheel when recess came. Everything turned upside down.

All of a sudden, I am very moody, very sad, very depressed and very tired. I'm tired of hiding. I'm tired of missing. I'm tired of being happy on the outside but totally different on the inside. I am very tired.

Have you ever tried being so depressed but you have to act like nothing happened with your life in order to hide from everyone? Sigh. 我真的是好累。只感觉好令人不开心。

It's torturing. 4 times a month. How can I live with that. Sigh.

Quote for the day: Try not to hide.

rachel berry.

2010-06-10T08:27:00.000-07:00

A blog is suppose to be a place where you can express your heart. Say out everything to the world. Recently, I found myself typing everything and then delete everything. And, I found myself avoiding blogging nowadays. There are too much things that i could not tell. I am not actually blogging now. I'm making myself miserable.

I have too much to say. But too little to be allowed to tell.

What can I do?

A.L.O.N.E

2010-06-04T08:07:00.000-07:00

How can I be in this awful condition? This is the first time I feel so Alone. So lonely. So cry-ish. I feel like an original crying baby now. Damn. It's been the whole day. I kept telling myself that it will be okay. Everything will be okay in the afternoon or evening or even at night. But what did I get? Disappointment. A hurtful heart. Tears. Sorrow. Loneliness. I hate this feeling. Seriously, I hate this feeling. How can people be so selfish sometimes? How can I be in this situation? Aren't I the happy one? Where is my happiness? Where is it? How can I find it back? How can I fill my heart with happiness again? Questions and questions and questions in the back of my brain. Hiding layers and layers under my heart. I feel like a lost girl who fall into a dark pit, waiting for an impossible rescue.

This is suffering. This leaves me in total sorrow and pain.

the end.

2010-05-26T07:30:00.000-07:00

i can't believe that it's the last day of exam tomorrow. At last! It's the last day! Well, i know there will be more exams coming soon but hell i don't friggin' care! I have to move my butt to enjoy my holiday before the torture part comes again.

I will be heading towards Kote Kinabalu this friday. Oh dear, i hope there will be some internet connection there man. I really can't ignore my blog like what i did for this sem's exam man. Hell no! So i really hope there will be some internet connection there man.

So long, blogosphere! Adious!

new toes!

2010-05-17T23:34:00.000-07:00

i super love my new colour! =) i'm so gonna try fluorescent pink next. =)

Add Maths-less.

2010-05-14T07:04:00.000-07:00

I wonder what will Mr. Moh think of if this is my answer for the Add Maths Paper today. Huak Huak!

Quote for the day: Have a good laugh after a stressful day!

Happy Mama Bear's Day!

2010-05-09T05:17:00.000-07:00

da da da dada! i'm lovin' it.

It's Mama Bear's day people! Oh dear, I made mama a video BUT i have no courage to show her. Haha. It was a hilarious yet stupid video. My dumbest idea of gifts in my entire life man. =.=

Mama went to Tawau to celebrate with her mama. So i was alone with my servant and my brother last night. Brother brought his friends from the academy and they really made a very noisy environment. It was 11.30++ and the first thing they did when they came into the house was fooling around with my piano. My pee-a-noe!!! Dammit.

Anyway, yesterday was a miraculous day for me. Being able to do that enlightens me. It enlightens my day and it changes me. I'm lovin' it! =)

Quote for the day: Chase your dream~

The Sea of Headaches

2010-05-07T08:14:00.000-07:00

Hello gentleman and those who are not so gentle! It's another Friday and how are you guys feeling? Well, SINDEX is actually over and there will be one more project awaiting for me. And, exam is really too soon! Had Bible exam today and oh dear. I hope I'll get good results. Do not dare to even think about it. =.=

Played Dota with Cath, Jamie, Awang and Siva. I got killed the most i guess. What to do, I'm still a beginner. A NOOB! =.=

I made a pillow! =P

Quote for the day: Two is better than one.

Dota!

2010-05-01T08:59:00.000-07:00

This is a really challenging game man! It's the first time I seriously play this game and I won!! =) I mean, we won. =) Cath and I, superwomen killed, killed and killed!! I'm the windrunner! XD This really enlightens my night of boredom man. Haha!

Quote for the day: Learn to release your stress!

Ugly Bruise!

2010-04-28T03:28:00.000-07:00

Look! Some insect bit me on my knee when we went to RDC last Saturday. Now, it's like bernanah already. Damn.

Anyway, we had add maths test today, which is quite average for me. Well, I still dont know whether i'll fail again or not. Who knows right? Let God decide. =)

Scott Joplin.

2010-04-22T01:15:00.000-07:00

Yes! Finally got this book from amazon.com. I loooooooove Scott Joplin! He is really an extreme bizarre, talented, jumpy musician!

People, this... is Scott Joplin. He's an African American. he was the "King of Ragtime" . He composed "The Entertainer", "Maple Leaf Rag", "Gladiolus Rag", "The Chrysanthemum" and many other famous rags. Oh gosh.. He was suck a talented pianist. Unfortunately, he died at the age of 49. It's such a waste to lost a person so talented.

Quote for the day: Never fail to succeed.

SarangHae!

2010-04-21T05:05:00.000-07:00

You can't actually define love.

Audrey showed off her skills of writing korean. =.=
The "SarangHae" fantasy.

It's pretty though.

Quote for the day: Appreciate love.

Sportsy!

2010-04-16T05:58:00.000-07:00

It was a sporty day for me today! WooHoo! It's been a long time since i sweat like this. I'm feeling great man! I went to Golf Club with Manda, met up with Corrie and Manda and I started to play tennis. She did a great job hitting the wall as she can't play with me as I'm too "geng". =.= After 15 minutes of tennis, (in my case, picking up tennis balls) we went for basketball! Where all the fun begins! WooHoo!

At first, we can't get the ball into the net. We were like fustrated. After awhile, I invented the star-jump-move! No kidding, it really worked man! Haha! When it's my turn to toss the ball, it went into the net! 3 goals in a row with my star-jump-move! What a big result for me! Later on, I came up with a new move again! The single-handed-aim-move! Haha! And it went into the net 4 times in a row. *claps* =)

Quote for the day: Basketballs are fun!

Impromptu.

2010-04-15T01:56:00.000-07:00

What can I do to make all the committees co-operate? I am too disappointed to even say a word.

Quote for the day: Complete your duty.

Talented Pianists. claps

2010-04-10T09:55:00.000-07:00

This is David Sides. He's 24 years old and damn! He's really good in piano man! Turning trashy songs into music art. When I first watched his videos in youtube, I was like waddahell?i'mtotallyachicken. =.=
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This is Emily Bear. 9 years old and already like the next Mozart. =.= She even has the people of White House in her own house just to watch her fingers playing the piano. =.= AND! She had been on the Ellen's show TWICE! AND! She's composing music. =.=

When will I be like these people????????????????????

Quote for the day: Work hard to reach for the stars.

Easter Celebration 2010~!

2010-04-09T03:05:00.001-07:00

Something's wrong with my eyes huh?

Corrie and I. =)

One.

Two.

Three.

Four.

Hi-Five! =)

Quote for the day: Stay healthy. =)

Dedicated to Audrey. =)

2010-04-07T04:23:00.000-07:00

It's Tweety Day today for Audrey!! WooHoo!!

See Tweety's mouth? Audrey's lips suddenly became like that today. Pity her. But the first thing I thought of was Tweety Bird!! She.Is.So.Adorable. =)

my lips like birdie, my lips like birdie~
i look like tweety bird, i look like tweety bird~
- lyrics changed from Sugar by Florida-

This was Audrey's face whenever I sing that song! =)

Pre-Easter Celebration 2010~!

2010-04-07T00:46:00.000-07:00

It was my 1st Easter Celebration practice today. Quite boring at first. But as soon as Corrie joined the choir, we were singing at the top of our lungs! Haha.

Easter Celebration promised-attire by Grace, Corrie, Audrey and I. High heels, white t's and jeans. Anyone who doesn't wear'em, jaga kau! <-- (mainly for Audrey) =)

Quote for the day: Celebrate, Jesus Celebrate!

Welcome, My Dear!

2010-04-06T06:24:00.000-07:00

This is my dear baby sister Kylie! Kylie Anne Han Kelvin. Hmph, what can I say about her? She laughs all the time, smiles all the time and she even smiles when she's angry! Oh, dear. You might say that she is a person with a happy-sickness or whatsoever. But for me, she's always the optimist girl and she's Mandy's and my lovely dear SUN!

Welcome to the world with blog, Sun!

Oh! She's having a dreadful tummy ache now. Oh, man. Get well soon my dear Sun! We'll pray for you!

Quote for the day: Cherish friendship.

A Round of Applause!

2010-04-05T23:42:00.000-07:00

Wow, I was pretty attentive in class today! Yay for me! ( come on lar, I'm not usually that attentive i class okay? ) Anyway, I had a moderate day today except the fact that it was sizzling hot. Feels so good to lie on my bed, under the air-conditioner while I'm posting something now. Ahhh~

Oh ya! April Fool was quite boring at first until our class decided to prank Mr. Bernard during the last period which was his lesson. Haha. It was started with the argument of Chong Yih Lip, Pang Yong Tong and Tan Pui Lei. Seriously man, 3 of them have the potential to become a professional actor man.

Mr. B was actually giving a super looooooooooong talk on why we should not argue with our classmates and stuff like that. It was super funny to see Mr. B so serious man. Haha!! When the last bell rang, Adeline stood up and said, "cikgu, sebenarnya kan...... Itu ialah April Fool oh.. =)" Mr. B shut up his mouth while we were laughing hard. XD He went out of the class and shouted, "i dont want to friend you all!"

Oh, dear... Who will say that Mr. B is not a fuuny man? Hahahahahaha!

Why Me.

2010-04-04T01:37:00.000-07:00

Today, I feel like no one understand me. Yes, today. I used to have a person who understands me well. What happen today? Why does everyone treats me like this? I needed a person to listen to me but no one was there. Why? Why am I the one?

I do not hope for everyone's attention. All I need is one person who is willing to listen to me. One person who is willing to listen to me 24/7. I found one but today, the one was not at my service.

I had a bad day. I wanted to scream. I wanted to talk to the toilet bowl and flush everything away. I wanted to be out of this cage. I wanted to be free. I wanted to be in a pair of arms and let every single drop of tears out.

I am feeling very depressed now. Depressed enough to sit in front of my dog and just to stare into his eyes, hoping that he will comfort me. Hoping that he knows my problems and hoping that he will be the arms i wanted. Reality, a dog is a dog. He is not a human. Even if he does comfort me, I will not know what is he trying to tell me.

I really wanted someone who can listen.

Good Friday.

2010-04-02T06:33:00.000-07:00

It's Good Friday, everyone. Went to church just now. Ben was there. Double Amanda were there too. A lot of the students went. It's a good thing though. Nowadays, not a lot of teens will go to church on their own will.

Jesus died for us on the cross to wash away our sins. But, a lot of us keep repeating the same sins. When are we going to wake up?

Thank you, Jesus.

A Boy Slut.

2010-03-30T23:36:00.000-07:00

The Prefects' Camp was over. Ahh~ At least, I have time now to update my blog. And, wow. My blog was totally covered with spider webs. *Oopss.* For me, prefects' camp wasn't really that successful. There are some place that we, AJKs should improve.

I mean, seriously man. All of us, AJKs together with the service team did a lot of stuff in this camp. We helped the campers. We organized station games and even Yuan Shiau Shan they all were busy preparing food. There's this boy, complaining everything we AJKs did. It's not like he did a lot of stuff during this camp. I can tell the world boldly that the things I did is far more than him man. He was saying that all of us, girls were having fun in the camp instead of helping out. Once I heard these, I was like what the fuck man.

While we were walking to trig hill, we guided the campers. We helped the campers and what did you do? Flirt with Elaine? What the hell man!? Where on earth is your professionalism? Where on earth are your manners? It's the PREFECTS' CAMP. Not any other camp. We were supposed to show damn good examples and not doing what you did man. Actually, I did not want to talk about you man. But your damn attitude. WTF?! You were telling us that after everything we did, we are some kind of useless freak. Here, you are the useless freak. No matter how much you did, in all our hearts, YOU ARE THE USELESS FREAK!

Prefects' Camp 2010

2010-03-25T21:12:00.000-07:00

YES!!! It's finally prefects' camp! =)

Oh! Let me introduce you to the Sung Siew Interact Club's blog!
Visit!
http://sungsiewic.blogspot.com

enthusiasm.

2010-03-17T07:17:00.000-07:00

Wow, I've been quite lazy lately to update my blog. Well, it's holiday now. I believe all of you knows about it. So, i better not crap alot about 'the holiday'. My stupid laptop isn't functioning well. Aduuuiii. How can i live without my laptop??? I have to use my mini-screen-cell phone to do everything which involves the internet. Gosh. I'm gonna be blind soon man.

Oh, ya! Mommy has decided that i'm mature enough to have my contact lens! Woohoo! At last, mommy thinks that i'm old enough to try put new things. Sigh. I've been in the cage for awhile man. Seriously?

2010-03-10T02:24:00.000-08:00

It's been a long week for me. I'm all alone in the deserted island. Lost and all alone. Every single breath of mine are cold. I did not know whether I'm alive or dead. I wanted to cry but my tears will not roll down my cheeks. I wanted to scream but my throat was blocked. I wanted to be pulseless so I would not experience pain.

Whoa, that's so emo. Haha. Well, i'd gone through tests and challenges this week. It's like a roller coaster. I was busy as a bee again. I went to Junior and Seniour a couple of times today. Which was totally tiring! Grace and I had our tongues stucking out by the time we reached class. Sigh.

I AM STARTING TO LIKE SCOTT JOPLIN"S PIECES!

the doomed spirit

2010-03-03T05:29:00.000-08:00

Well, i'm actually in bed now. Just being responsible to update my blog. Since it's been isolated for a couple of days already. =) It's been a hectic week for me. Tests and organisation and stuffs. Personal stuff mainly. So it'll be a confidential one. =)

I received the postcard from Jeremy!!!! WooHoo!! My hard work meant something at least. Haha. I'm sure Jeremy will be like " i hope she'll stop yelling postcard to me when i see her." like that. Haha.

I love my sunshine! =)

Celebration

2010-02-25T05:40:00.000-08:00

We were having our Chinese New Year celebration today in school. Well, i might say that it's more creative than the pass few years. But it took some time to the next agenda. I love the boys dancing Sorry Sorry by Super Junior. Haha. Believe me, if you were seeing it, you'll be laughing like hell. I totally love the costume of the malay team. It's an imitation of the Jabbawockeez which is totally cool! Heart those masks a lot!

H.U.M.A.N

2010-02-24T04:30:00.000-08:00

I realised that certain humans love to boss around and force. Some of them never agree with other people's opinion. For them, they are always the right ones. Seriously, I am sick of it already. I wanted to get out of this circle. I wanted to gain my own happiness.

I needed freedom. I needed happiness. I can't breathe. I know I am quite emo now and it's not "me" at all. I can't stand it anymore and sooner or later, I'm going to burst. I hate this.

Happy CNY, people!

2010-02-15T21:13:00.000-08:00

hello, people! It's Chinese New Year and yet, i'm forced to use my phone to update my blog since the line at home isn't too good. =) What can you do right? It's the nature city.

Anyway, i'm currently in Kelly's house. Waiting for the feast to begin. Haha. Too bad Audrey isn't here to join us. If she's here, it'll be a perfect day. Gossips, boys, and more gossips. Haha.

Gotta run, farewell, people!

I Wish.............

2010-02-11T00:22:00.001-08:00

I wish I'm a BIRD.

privacy

2010-02-08T23:50:00.000-08:00

When will have my very own privacy?